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[daydreamz630]

with brian being in training for the army and all, i have been doing some major thinking. ive always had a soft spot for the men and women in the armed forces because i just think they are the bravest people in the world.. someone who is willing to give up time of their own life just to protect their country and its people. i really dont agree with the war in iraq but i support those soldiers with every fiber of my being.. they didnt ask to be thrown into a pointless war, they asked to make a difference if God forbid our lives were truly in jeopardy. But anyway i got bored and was online and somehow i found this website that had "ways to help the soldiers" and basically it was just the usual letters, emails, care packages but there was something else that caught my eye, it was a program that some high school girls started where you donate your ink cartridges and old cell phones and they recycle them in exchange for money that they then use to get pre paid phone cards to give to the soldiers overseas so that they can call their families back home.. i thought that was a really awesome idea.. i really really admire them for thinking of something like that and it makes me feel kinda bad because i really do want to do something to help them.. i couldnt imaging being put into a situatin full of violence and death and to top it all off, doing so without my family and friends by my side. not to mention that as awful as it must be for the soldiers themselves, i know its hard on their spouses and children back at home without their loved one. i know that brian is only in training now but because he wants to do what he wants to do, chances are he'll get sent over seas soon enough and its really bothering me. i know in my heart he will be okay but i still think that no one should have to go through that.. so i made a promise to myself that when he does go, i want to be here supporting him all the way, sending letters and care packages and just doing whatever i have to do.

now i know thats a total turn around from what i have previously written about brian, but he wasnt all that bad, i think i just made it seem so much worse than what it was... he loved me and i totally treated him like crap and i regret that.. so i am going to make it up to him. what sucks is that he'll be stationed in GA and i'll barely see him but as long as im around and i let him know that i am, ill just feel that much better about the whole situation. he graduates from basic on wednesday and im excited, ill more than likely be able to talk to him alot more and i cant wait.. i really think that the training probably changed him for the better, maybe made him mature a little bit. i dont see how it couldnt have. but anyway.. im done rambling on now.. but now we know why im as obsessed about out military as i am.. they are people too.. just in really hot uniforms... haha