i feel so incredibly stupid its not even funny ..
yeah so i just got home from softball a little while ago. we found out if we made the team or not. there was 17 trying out and he was gonna keep 14. thanks to me he ended up keeping 16 lol. so i walk up there since he individually called us and told us and i started crying before he even started talking. i felt like such a loser. then i started laughing and crying at the same time thus making me sound like a horse or something lol. it was horrible. i felt like an idiot. i dont even deserve to be on the team. he wanted 14 not 16 so why keep me? he told me that im not gonna play at all so essentially it was my choice. id rather be on the team and never play than not be on it at all so thats what i decided. i understand his reasoning and im fine with not playing. of course im gonna want to, but why would he put me in when theres 14 other girls that are better than me? so yeah im hoping to still have fun this season i guess.
i got to miss school today for stage crew because we did performances for union east, a sneak preview for the high school, and the first act and ending for middle school. they went pretty well aside from the crappy microphones and dans stupid tall self making htem make strange sounds lol. gotta remember not to wear white pants next time haha. "flem!"
something that made me smile today: .. things may be looking up .. O:-) oh and don singing build me up buttercup .. amazing! haha