I'm going for a walk.
I gave up on today yesterday. I postponed all my tests and slept in this morning. I'm kinda thinking that I'm an awful person. I never thought things would get this hard. Actually, I never thought things would be hard. When you think about your future, you never think about heartache, loss, and depression. You always want the best, and you almost expect it. Sometimes the best things in life are the things you don't expect, but that's not really the case. I have a UTI infection, and a staff infection. I'm on Cipro for one of them, and it makes me so sick. I haven't eaten in days, and that really doesn't make me feel to good either. But eating would make me feel worse. I hate how that's my way of dealing with depression. I so want to be that normal well adjusted girl. I'm on a little time limit, so I'm trying to gush out everything at once.
Bobby's grandma died. I'm not doing bad, but I'm not doing great. She was an awesome lady. I worked for her and Mr. Sanders at the Newspaper office for a year. I remember Bobby coming to visit me, and they'd smile and watch out of the corner of their eyes when he'd give me a kiss goodbye. She's play baseball at family functions. She was such fighter, and I look around and see all these people I love. I would love to be like her when I'm older. I say that about a few people, and I really mean it. My thumb is bleeding and I don't know why.
Jes
Bobby's grandma died. I'm not doing bad, but I'm not doing great. She was an awesome lady. I worked for her and Mr. Sanders at the Newspaper office for a year. I remember Bobby coming to visit me, and they'd smile and watch out of the corner of their eyes when he'd give me a kiss goodbye. She's play baseball at family functions. She was such fighter, and I look around and see all these people I love. I would love to be like her when I'm older. I say that about a few people, and I really mean it. My thumb is bleeding and I don't know why.
Jes