another day in a boring town
Ok, so things don't seem to be any easier. Ok. Yes they do. I'm not with Joe, and that is so definitely not what I want, but I'm ok with it. My house was in total chaos for about three days. No one was speaking to anyone. My parents were outraged with me for a) what I told them and b) telling them I lied. My mom finally said that she'll butt out, which could be good and bad. I'll have no one to be there for me, but I can do whatever I want. I'm tired of chasing after Joe. I don't know what he's doing but it's so hard on me. He asks me to come over, tells me he misses me, but he tells me he still doesn't want to get back together. What's a girl to do? I've decided not to talk to him for a while, at least until I can figure out what's going on with me. How can you say you love someone when the world around you is changing?
I'm having a hard time paying attention now. I'm in the computer lab at school, and I'm very distracted. So many people to look at. Anyway, I'm so exhausted. Physically and mentally. I have three really long days during the week, and I'm still wanting Joe, and dealing with the hurt and I'm just drained. I've come very close to snapping. I have a four day weekend coming up. I think I might cancel work, and just go somewhere. I would love to spend a few days down at my cottage. With Joe. Ack! Why can't I be a happy independent woman? The last few months we were together, I bitched about him all the time. Then things really did start to get better. WE had one fight, I was attacked, and he wants nothing to do with me. He then keeps sending these mixed signals, and I don't know what to do. Well, now I'm in a crap ass mood. Great.
JEs
I'm having a hard time paying attention now. I'm in the computer lab at school, and I'm very distracted. So many people to look at. Anyway, I'm so exhausted. Physically and mentally. I have three really long days during the week, and I'm still wanting Joe, and dealing with the hurt and I'm just drained. I've come very close to snapping. I have a four day weekend coming up. I think I might cancel work, and just go somewhere. I would love to spend a few days down at my cottage. With Joe. Ack! Why can't I be a happy independent woman? The last few months we were together, I bitched about him all the time. Then things really did start to get better. WE had one fight, I was attacked, and he wants nothing to do with me. He then keeps sending these mixed signals, and I don't know what to do. Well, now I'm in a crap ass mood. Great.
JEs