I hate my life right now
Any normal self respecting parent would start saving up money for the college of his eldest and second eldest. I have proved my worth in almost every field of life. I got into the best high school in town after a whole year of not eating and sleeping on the brink of exhaustion. I sacrificed my social life to learn English so high that I basically dreamt in fluid in English and mind you when I was little knowing English showed prestige. I then studied to be accepted into the elite German class in my school and then wrote a whole paperwork on Euthanasia to win a damn diploma that I achieved a very high level in German (although my grammar skills deteriorated very fast. I can just read it and understand it, but talking comes hard).
I never skipped school. I looked after my sisters. I did chores. I worked summers. I did everything on the god damn list to show that I deserve a better education and realization. Right now all I can say is that I feel betrayed and neglected, because instead of figuring how to make money and so on he said, I quote: “I am very sorry. You have potential, but I don’t have the money. You will have to study here at hometown in home university and win a scholarship too so that we don’t have to pay here too.” The taxes barely are 70$ a semester. Just make out how much I am worth in his eyes.
I hate to bitch, I hate to whine, I hate to make myself weak in the eyes of people, but I just can’t believe that I am stuck with such a person as a father. In the end now I am torn between studying, figuring how to deal with this and writing as much as I can so that I can get as much short fiction and novellas out there to save money and convince him that I can go abroad.
Thank you for listening. I won’t moan about this anymore. Just had to let it out.
I never skipped school. I looked after my sisters. I did chores. I worked summers. I did everything on the god damn list to show that I deserve a better education and realization. Right now all I can say is that I feel betrayed and neglected, because instead of figuring how to make money and so on he said, I quote: “I am very sorry. You have potential, but I don’t have the money. You will have to study here at hometown in home university and win a scholarship too so that we don’t have to pay here too.” The taxes barely are 70$ a semester. Just make out how much I am worth in his eyes.
I hate to bitch, I hate to whine, I hate to make myself weak in the eyes of people, but I just can’t believe that I am stuck with such a person as a father. In the end now I am torn between studying, figuring how to deal with this and writing as much as I can so that I can get as much short fiction and novellas out there to save money and convince him that I can go abroad.
Thank you for listening. I won’t moan about this anymore. Just had to let it out.
