AHHHHH!
ahhhh my stomach is TURNING i dont know wat to dooo......sooo muchhh stufff going on...my mom doesnt want me to do colorguard =\.......wtf am i suppose to do? she says its toooo many hours and its my senior year and i should be more focused in the colleges i should be applying to and that my grades need to go up...crap like that....yeah i guess shes right in a way...i mean come on i have to take effin world history my senior year b-cuz i failed it my freshman cuz i was doin sooo much shittt....and right now my grades arent the greatest thing ever =\......she says fine do something else just something that doesnt make you come home at like 9 on weekdays....you need to dedicate yourself to school and crap like that...how am i suppose to tell ms.g.....i cant i just cant....its just tooo hard.....i cant im about to cry this is tooo much pressure...i wanna do it its my senior year!....ahhhh....i need to tell her by monday cuz try outs are then...i just cant do it...my stomach is turning and its not even monday....ahhhh.... she needs to know how many girls she can pick...ughh i just cant...yeah my mom said do cheerin or soccer or some other sport..or something..okay first of all i hate running (>:O) i hate it....soo cheering? idk....i dont even know wen try outs are....and it prolly started whoo knows....ahhhh.....i just cant see myself doing it...knowing i'll be goin to the football games and seein the colorguard watching me...they're gonna hate me =\.....this is tooo hard...but the thing is that i need to do something...and im going to every football game i know that....i cant miss that...i love it too muchhh..wtf am i suppose to do?