There goes my self-esteem...
So, whatever self-esteem I had last night just flew out the door. Well, not really. I'm just being overly dramatic.
I was hanging with my friends Ryan and Chris last night at the Abbey and after about an hour sitting there, in walks this young adonis. So for about another hour, I'm sitting on the other side of the Abbey trying to contemplate with my friends on how I'm going to talk to him. What I ended up doing was I wrote my name and number on a piece of paper, went up to the guy and said "Hey, I usually don't do this but here's my number, call me sometime..." Then he was like "You mean...romantically?" Then I was like "Oh, so you're not...*awkward pause*...ok." Then I left. OMG! He's straight! This is after Chris and Ryan assured me for an hour that he was gay and that their gaydar was more or less perfect.
So, they were waiting outside for me while all this happened and as soon as I got out there, I said "he's not gay." :( So, traumatized by the experience, we sped off to Chris's place because I needed to hang out with people for comfort. We watched the last episode of Will & Grace on his DVR.
But OMG, he was so cute! At least he was smiling when I gave him my number. *swoon* He probably was more flattered than anything. Good thing he wasn't offended and wanted to beat me up or something.
Anywho, this is officially the first time I've tried to talk to someone in public. I'm shy...I'll admit it. I'm not the kind of person who would approach people in public. So doing this was a big step for me. And I guess I'm kidding about losing my self-esteem. If anything, I have a little bit more self-esteem and confidence for doing what I did. Apparently, according to Ryan and Chris, I've got bigger balls than them. But, it's a good thing he's straight. If he was gay and just flat-out rejected me...then I would have lost my self-esteem/confidence.
I was hanging with my friends Ryan and Chris last night at the Abbey and after about an hour sitting there, in walks this young adonis. So for about another hour, I'm sitting on the other side of the Abbey trying to contemplate with my friends on how I'm going to talk to him. What I ended up doing was I wrote my name and number on a piece of paper, went up to the guy and said "Hey, I usually don't do this but here's my number, call me sometime..." Then he was like "You mean...romantically?" Then I was like "Oh, so you're not...*awkward pause*...ok." Then I left. OMG! He's straight! This is after Chris and Ryan assured me for an hour that he was gay and that their gaydar was more or less perfect.
So, they were waiting outside for me while all this happened and as soon as I got out there, I said "he's not gay." :( So, traumatized by the experience, we sped off to Chris's place because I needed to hang out with people for comfort. We watched the last episode of Will & Grace on his DVR.
But OMG, he was so cute! At least he was smiling when I gave him my number. *swoon* He probably was more flattered than anything. Good thing he wasn't offended and wanted to beat me up or something.
Anywho, this is officially the first time I've tried to talk to someone in public. I'm shy...I'll admit it. I'm not the kind of person who would approach people in public. So doing this was a big step for me. And I guess I'm kidding about losing my self-esteem. If anything, I have a little bit more self-esteem and confidence for doing what I did. Apparently, according to Ryan and Chris, I've got bigger balls than them. But, it's a good thing he's straight. If he was gay and just flat-out rejected me...then I would have lost my self-esteem/confidence.