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This might be the longest time I've gone without updating this here journal of mine.
What would you like to hear about? Classes? Fraternity stuff? Friends? Money problems? Post-graduation plans?
I don't think I want to bore y'all with updates and the likes. Especially since there's been stuff going on that I shouldn't put out there for just anyone to read. Not that it involves anyone else, it's just a little more personal than I would like to share.
At least for right now.
Can I just say I feel sooooo hefty right now? I ate too much at dinner and this cheesecake me, Chris and Jimmy are having is really not doing me any good.
I should just be happy with the body I have now but I'm really not. When you go from being a golden boy and having the ideal body to having to find ways to keep the pounds off, well it does take a toll on a person. I don't think I eat anymore than I used to but then again, beer and liquor were not staples back in my cross country days. I was more active when I was younger- basketball, tennis, baseball, running- than I have been since I've been in college.
And I'm paying for it.
While sweat pants and sweat shirts are really warm and comfortable, I didn't used to resort to them as a way of hiding myself. But I find myself doing that so often or just holding a pillow so that I can just relax, without being considered as if anyone can see my stuffy self.
I weigh 155 lbs, I'm 5'5, I have a 30 inch waist so I mean I'm not like obese but still, some days I just wanna take a knife (if I could) and cut away the pounds.
I used to have a group of friends who I think were my friends only because I had this body and this confidence that I somewhat lost as I stopped exercising and became less active. I don't see any of them anymore and that's okay 'cause it seemed like such a struggle some days to meet this certain status.
I'm babbling, I know.
I should just be content with being 'pleasantly plump' as Ricki Lake's charcter says in Hairspray.
What would you like to hear about? Classes? Fraternity stuff? Friends? Money problems? Post-graduation plans?
I don't think I want to bore y'all with updates and the likes. Especially since there's been stuff going on that I shouldn't put out there for just anyone to read. Not that it involves anyone else, it's just a little more personal than I would like to share.
At least for right now.
Can I just say I feel sooooo hefty right now? I ate too much at dinner and this cheesecake me, Chris and Jimmy are having is really not doing me any good.
I should just be happy with the body I have now but I'm really not. When you go from being a golden boy and having the ideal body to having to find ways to keep the pounds off, well it does take a toll on a person. I don't think I eat anymore than I used to but then again, beer and liquor were not staples back in my cross country days. I was more active when I was younger- basketball, tennis, baseball, running- than I have been since I've been in college.
And I'm paying for it.
While sweat pants and sweat shirts are really warm and comfortable, I didn't used to resort to them as a way of hiding myself. But I find myself doing that so often or just holding a pillow so that I can just relax, without being considered as if anyone can see my stuffy self.
I weigh 155 lbs, I'm 5'5, I have a 30 inch waist so I mean I'm not like obese but still, some days I just wanna take a knife (if I could) and cut away the pounds.
I used to have a group of friends who I think were my friends only because I had this body and this confidence that I somewhat lost as I stopped exercising and became less active. I don't see any of them anymore and that's okay 'cause it seemed like such a struggle some days to meet this certain status.
I'm babbling, I know.
I should just be content with being 'pleasantly plump' as Ricki Lake's charcter says in Hairspray.