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you're so amazing. you have so much to offer. so many great qualities. you're going to make someone really happy someday and they'll make you happy as well.
sometimes I think that I wish it could be me. but I'm not that lucky. girls like me don't end up with guys like you. girls like me are just dreamers. trying to hide or escape the feelings they have inside, the things they've experienced, and who they really are.
girls like me pine away after guys who hurt them, leave them, or don't even notice them.
but then again, girls like me aren't noticeable.
girls like me get so anxious or sad that they want to crawl out of their own skin, so they try cutting their way out themselves
I miss you. I miss you soo much, it keeps me up at night. I miss how I felt about you. I miss the that feeling of being alive every time I thought of you.
now, I just feel dark, mixed-up, sometimes even dead inside. sometimes I feel like my heart is just going to stop beating because it has no one or anything to beat for.
I don't like that. I don't like me. I want help. I want to be saved the way princesses are rescued from towers in story books. but, as you and I well know we aren't in a story book. and chances are I wont be saved. the odds are against me.
if you cared and you're reading this then you'll say something. but that's never happened. and I don't expect it to now or anytime soon. you're probably too busy with your own problems which is understandable. I'm an emotional train wreck. I'm too much work, too needy, too much effort, too.....everything that you despise and find annoying.
my eyes hurt. I think they will turn black soon like my insides.
such a depressing entry yet again don't you agree? I don't even know who I'm talking to. no one reads this.
goodnight
sometimes I think that I wish it could be me. but I'm not that lucky. girls like me don't end up with guys like you. girls like me are just dreamers. trying to hide or escape the feelings they have inside, the things they've experienced, and who they really are.
girls like me pine away after guys who hurt them, leave them, or don't even notice them.
but then again, girls like me aren't noticeable.
girls like me get so anxious or sad that they want to crawl out of their own skin, so they try cutting their way out themselves
I miss you. I miss you soo much, it keeps me up at night. I miss how I felt about you. I miss the that feeling of being alive every time I thought of you.
now, I just feel dark, mixed-up, sometimes even dead inside. sometimes I feel like my heart is just going to stop beating because it has no one or anything to beat for.
I don't like that. I don't like me. I want help. I want to be saved the way princesses are rescued from towers in story books. but, as you and I well know we aren't in a story book. and chances are I wont be saved. the odds are against me.
if you cared and you're reading this then you'll say something. but that's never happened. and I don't expect it to now or anytime soon. you're probably too busy with your own problems which is understandable. I'm an emotional train wreck. I'm too much work, too needy, too much effort, too.....everything that you despise and find annoying.
my eyes hurt. I think they will turn black soon like my insides.
such a depressing entry yet again don't you agree? I don't even know who I'm talking to. no one reads this.
goodnight