Why, everytime I write in my journal... it's sad?
I play the flute. It sounds beautiful. I love my music, when I have a recital you're all invited. I love band music, orchestra music.
Anyways... enough about that. Onto what I really came to this live journal about.
Read the song.
"Only One"
Yellowcard
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
That's exactly how I feel. I don't know what to do anymore. You don't feel like it's important enough to call me before 10 on school nights. I need my sleep...I really do. But it's not all that. I got stood up, I watched for you. Over and over. You never came... I told someone to have you call me if they saw you. I never got a call.
I think about everything. How horrible it was the last time we broke up. How jumbled my emotions were, how I couldn't let you go. How I couldn't just... leave you alone. Let you get on with your own life. I was so messed up back then, falling into the rut that a lot of girls do after losing thier first loves. I lost all my morals... I think you knew. I just wanted to get it over with. Wanted someone to fill my empty void. No one did, it was useless acts of love that in fact, had no love at all. I felt so hurt, going home at nights... crying. Holding myself, wanting you there to hold me too. Even though I knew that couldn't happen.
I don't want that to happen again. But I'm torn. You are the only one like you. I've never met someone I've found more fascinating, more wonderful than you. And it's horrible. I'm screaming at you from the inside, wishing for you to listen...just, listen. Anyone would be lucky to have you. You really are amazing. But I feel like you're fading? Are you fading? I don't know. I don't get calls until late... sometimes not at all. You make excuses not to see me..you're out of reach at all times. I just have to wait...for when you want me.
I've already gone through this... I've already been put through this by someone else. I don't want to wait to be wanted. I want you.. I want you now! But I'm waiting. I'm always wanting you....do you feel the same?
My only one... that's what you are. MY love, my world. If I leave you... how am I going to fill a horrible black hole that will form itself inside me? How can I talk to you? I won't be able to without wanting you again.
If we break up it'll be almost impossible for me to even look at you without wanting you...what an ongoing process...
I'm always going to want you. Forever and always...but you're hurting me...it keeps hurting. All the time. I go to bed thinking of you everynight. Staring at my walls.. cuddling up in my bed. Hoping to hear that you love me sometime that night.
Anyways... enough about that. Onto what I really came to this live journal about.
Read the song.
"Only One"
Yellowcard
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
That's exactly how I feel. I don't know what to do anymore. You don't feel like it's important enough to call me before 10 on school nights. I need my sleep...I really do. But it's not all that. I got stood up, I watched for you. Over and over. You never came... I told someone to have you call me if they saw you. I never got a call.
I think about everything. How horrible it was the last time we broke up. How jumbled my emotions were, how I couldn't let you go. How I couldn't just... leave you alone. Let you get on with your own life. I was so messed up back then, falling into the rut that a lot of girls do after losing thier first loves. I lost all my morals... I think you knew. I just wanted to get it over with. Wanted someone to fill my empty void. No one did, it was useless acts of love that in fact, had no love at all. I felt so hurt, going home at nights... crying. Holding myself, wanting you there to hold me too. Even though I knew that couldn't happen.
I don't want that to happen again. But I'm torn. You are the only one like you. I've never met someone I've found more fascinating, more wonderful than you. And it's horrible. I'm screaming at you from the inside, wishing for you to listen...just, listen. Anyone would be lucky to have you. You really are amazing. But I feel like you're fading? Are you fading? I don't know. I don't get calls until late... sometimes not at all. You make excuses not to see me..you're out of reach at all times. I just have to wait...for when you want me.
I've already gone through this... I've already been put through this by someone else. I don't want to wait to be wanted. I want you.. I want you now! But I'm waiting. I'm always wanting you....do you feel the same?
My only one... that's what you are. MY love, my world. If I leave you... how am I going to fill a horrible black hole that will form itself inside me? How can I talk to you? I won't be able to without wanting you again.
If we break up it'll be almost impossible for me to even look at you without wanting you...what an ongoing process...
I'm always going to want you. Forever and always...but you're hurting me...it keeps hurting. All the time. I go to bed thinking of you everynight. Staring at my walls.. cuddling up in my bed. Hoping to hear that you love me sometime that night.