I know I havn't been on in a while. Basically, I'm working at least part time, we met with licensing yesterday, it's all going well. Christmas was nice..Rocky and I were spoiled rotten
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I am so sorry for your loss:(celticramblingsJanuary 10 2007, 07:07:28 UTC
I can't even begin to express how sad I am that you had to go through this. I lost my best friend Disney in May of 2005 and it still hurts. There is hardly a day that goes by that I don't think of her..
I know that you are hurting..And I know that you are holding those memories more tightly than you can describe. Dogs are very amazing and special, they really are gifts straight from God..They love unconditionally and completely.. The live their lives for the moment-they don't worry about tomorrow or dwell on yesterday. They forgive instantly, are always willing to be with you and to them-nothing is better than being with you. It's almost like they are here to teach us how to live our lives..we think we are training them-but in reality-they are showing us how wonderful life can be..
I really believe that they have souls just like we do. I also believe that they are far more intelligent than we can really understand..they can sense things that we can't. And because of that-I believe that he could feel-and still does feel-the love that you have for him right now. It is something that goes beyond the physical touch or the physical life. Remember that moment when you walked in and he lifted his head?~ He was telling you that he loved you. He couldn't talk like we do..so he said it all in his eyes-by the superhuman effort of lifting his head despite the pain-just to let you know that he saw you. He wanted you to know everything in that moment. He didn't have to do that-it wasn't instinct..it was love. What an amazing gift he gave you.
Shadow isn't gone. He quite literally lives in your heart..he is in heaven possibly getting into everything and anything:) Just imagine all those angels playing with him.. He is no longer in pain, but instead he is romping and playing-all the while thinking of you. He can see you-and hear you.. I really believe that. And I firmly believe with my whole heart that he misses you too just like you miss him.. You will see him again-you will hold him and hug him again. He is there, just waiting until that time many years away when you are both reunited.
Sometimes I will be sitting here at my computer desk. Disney used to sleep right underneath it at my feet..Some evenings I will get an overwhelming sense that she is here with me. I think she does check in on me, I see it in how Paddington (her sister) acts-she senses her too.. I talk to Disney, tell her I miss her..and that I love her. It aches and it still hurts but I remind myself that She is away, but not gone. The absence hurts more than I can say, but I take comfort in knowing that it isn't forever. And when we see each other again-I know she will be there, sleeping on something soft and comfy..she will sense me-then hear me..She will jerk that cuddly head up-and come running right to me faster than ever, I will give her the biggest hug..
So will Shadow.
Until then, keep remembering your times together, cherish the blessing that she was..Know that she hasn't forgotten you..know that she knew that you loved her beyond words.. She loves you beyond words. She never needed them to tell you that.
Re: I am so sorry for your loss:(daydreamer77January 10 2007, 19:51:06 UTC
Wow... I'm nearly speechless... that was BEAUTIFUL! I'm going to print that response out and keep that! Thank you so much. It meant so much to me, and although it made me cry, it was a good cry.
I actually hadn't cried since Friday. I've been making a scrapbook of his long, 17 years, and it's actually helped so much! It's almost like it's keeping him alive in my head, so I don't think he's totally gone. I know he loves me, and I know he knows I love him. I will NEVER forget that look he gave me when I walked in. And it wasn't just a simple head lift! I was actually standing diagonally to him from behind, after having put my coat on a kitchen chair. I came out of the kitchen, and that's when he lifted his head and sort of arched it back to look right at me...and then plopped it right back down because he didn't have the strength. But even my sister saw it, and was just in awe at how he did that for me. She says she'll always remember that look as well, and it was one of the first things she told my mom after she came home and had her initial shock of the events pass by.
He was a very special dog, and I actually had a dream the other day and the one distinctive thing I remembered from that dream was the brightest, most colorful rainbow you could imagine. I can still see it when I close my eyes. Rainbows are a sign of a pet passing, btw. So, I took that dream to mean that Shadow was in heaven now, and that he was happy. That made me feel so much better. This was actually Friday night, and that's why I hadn't cried since Friday (until this wonderful, beautiful letter)
Again, thank you.
I'll try to get on here more often. I'm sorry I've been so distant. Above all this, we're trying to get this preschool center open (it's nearly there...just have a few fine details left)...
I know that you are hurting..And I know that you are holding those memories more tightly than you can describe. Dogs are very amazing and special, they really are gifts straight from God..They love unconditionally and completely.. The live their lives for the moment-they don't worry about tomorrow or dwell on yesterday. They forgive instantly, are always willing to be with you and to them-nothing is better than being with you. It's almost like they are here to teach us how to live our lives..we think we are training them-but in reality-they are showing us how wonderful life can be..
I really believe that they have souls just like we do. I also believe that they are far more intelligent than we can really understand..they can sense things that we can't. And because of that-I believe that he could feel-and still does feel-the love that you have for him right now. It is something that goes beyond the physical touch or the physical life.
Remember that moment when you walked in and he lifted his head?~ He was telling you that he loved you. He couldn't talk like we do..so he said it all in his eyes-by the superhuman effort of lifting his head despite the pain-just to let you know that he saw you. He wanted you to know everything in that moment. He didn't have to do that-it wasn't instinct..it was love. What an amazing gift he gave you.
Shadow isn't gone. He quite literally lives in your heart..he is in heaven possibly getting into everything and anything:) Just imagine all those angels playing with him.. He is no longer in pain, but instead he is romping and playing-all the while thinking of you. He can see you-and hear you.. I really believe that. And I firmly believe with my whole heart that he misses you too just like you miss him..
You will see him again-you will hold him and hug him again. He is there, just waiting until that time many years away when you are both reunited.
Sometimes I will be sitting here at my computer desk. Disney used to sleep right underneath it at my feet..Some evenings I will get an overwhelming sense that she is here with me. I think she does check in on me, I see it in how Paddington (her sister) acts-she senses her too..
I talk to Disney, tell her I miss her..and that I love her. It aches and it still hurts but I remind myself that She is away, but not gone. The absence hurts more than I can say, but I take comfort in knowing that it isn't forever. And when we see each other again-I know she will be there, sleeping on something soft and comfy..she will sense me-then hear me..She will jerk that cuddly head up-and come running right to me faster than ever, I will give her the biggest hug..
So will Shadow.
Until then, keep remembering your times together, cherish the blessing that she was..Know that she hasn't forgotten you..know that she knew that you loved her beyond words.. She loves you beyond words. She never needed them to tell you that.
Something that strong endures.
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I actually hadn't cried since Friday. I've been making a scrapbook of his long, 17 years, and it's actually helped so much! It's almost like it's keeping him alive in my head, so I don't think he's totally gone. I know he loves me, and I know he knows I love him. I will NEVER forget that look he gave me when I walked in. And it wasn't just a simple head lift! I was actually standing diagonally to him from behind, after having put my coat on a kitchen chair. I came out of the kitchen, and that's when he lifted his head and sort of arched it back to look right at me...and then plopped it right back down because he didn't have the strength. But even my sister saw it, and was just in awe at how he did that for me. She says she'll always remember that look as well, and it was one of the first things she told my mom after she came home and had her initial shock of the events pass by.
He was a very special dog, and I actually had a dream the other day and the one distinctive thing I remembered from that dream was the brightest, most colorful rainbow you could imagine. I can still see it when I close my eyes. Rainbows are a sign of a pet passing, btw. So, I took that dream to mean that Shadow was in heaven now, and that he was happy. That made me feel so much better. This was actually Friday night, and that's why I hadn't cried since Friday (until this wonderful, beautiful letter)
Again, thank you.
I'll try to get on here more often. I'm sorry I've been so distant. Above all this, we're trying to get this preschool center open (it's nearly there...just have a few fine details left)...
God bless you, and have a wondeful week! *hugs*
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