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I feel like I have so much more to give and no one to give it to.
I have a meek existance the past few weeks. I'm okay with it. I'll bike to the library or try to write. I sit in my room alot. I read before classes start. I keep busy. School keeps me busy most of the time. I watch too much tv. I still hate when people say their busy when they're not. I hate wanting something I know i shouldn't have. I like books. I like records. I like letters. I got a typewrtter. It'll take me away from the tv and hopefully help inspire me to write more of the scripts I like. I feel invisible right now. I'm not complaining. I saw brokeback mountain...which is wonderful and sad, so yes this entry is on the somber side. It would just be nice to meet some who appreciates everything that I love about myself. It's like I'm searching for people who don't exist. And even the people that do exist...well they don't care as much as I want them to. Either that or I get shy around them so they don't know enough of who I am to care that much. I have wonderful friends here. Don't get me wrong. I am trying to be a better friend to them. I appreciate so much about them and I know what it feels like when you don't understand that someone is grateful for you. The typewriter will help with that mission I think. I'll write alot of much need letters to some friends I hope don't think I've forgotten about them. I was planning on reading tonight, but then I thought I was going to go out. And don't you just hate when you wait on a call that never comes. Okay I think I'm back to the point where I"ll enjoy reading tonight. Great indeed is Gatsby. It's been long overdue.
~Misty
I have a meek existance the past few weeks. I'm okay with it. I'll bike to the library or try to write. I sit in my room alot. I read before classes start. I keep busy. School keeps me busy most of the time. I watch too much tv. I still hate when people say their busy when they're not. I hate wanting something I know i shouldn't have. I like books. I like records. I like letters. I got a typewrtter. It'll take me away from the tv and hopefully help inspire me to write more of the scripts I like. I feel invisible right now. I'm not complaining. I saw brokeback mountain...which is wonderful and sad, so yes this entry is on the somber side. It would just be nice to meet some who appreciates everything that I love about myself. It's like I'm searching for people who don't exist. And even the people that do exist...well they don't care as much as I want them to. Either that or I get shy around them so they don't know enough of who I am to care that much. I have wonderful friends here. Don't get me wrong. I am trying to be a better friend to them. I appreciate so much about them and I know what it feels like when you don't understand that someone is grateful for you. The typewriter will help with that mission I think. I'll write alot of much need letters to some friends I hope don't think I've forgotten about them. I was planning on reading tonight, but then I thought I was going to go out. And don't you just hate when you wait on a call that never comes. Okay I think I'm back to the point where I"ll enjoy reading tonight. Great indeed is Gatsby. It's been long overdue.
~Misty