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I feel obligated to update but I really have nothing to say.
I'm ready to get out of high school. Everything seems so trivial now. But I'm scared to death to leave. I can't imagine starting all over when it took me so long to get where I am now. I don't know if you realize but I didn't used to talk... at all. You can say I'm quiet now, but if you could see how far I've come you'd think differently. I'm not scared to be myself anymore. I'll tell you what I think. You want to know the real me? I love Jesus Christ my Savior. That fact alone makes me weird to some, but do you see me denying it? Never. And I've had plenty of chances.
I'm tired of being the girl that people are scared to talk to because I'm a "Christian" and I'd be disappointed in them for screwing up. If you only knew how many times I've screwed up...
Sometimes I think that if I was still shy my heart wouldn't have been broken so many times. I'd be more confident and willing to put myself out there more. But I guess that's just the stubborn girl in me that always picks the one that won't love me back. That's how the story always goes. Even if it seems to be working out in the beginning it's bound to end in disaster, so why bother? Giving up makes too much sense. I'm about to go to college and he won't have any idea where I am, but it won't bother him at all. He won't even notice.
Well, I guess I did have something to say...
Oh yeah, by the way, if you know a specific person that is so conceited they're going to end up alone for the rest of their lives, tell them before it's too late. I can't, he blocked me. Ironically because he thought I'd care enough to IM him. The funny thing is that I didn't even find out until someone else told me.
May God bless you and keep you near Him always.
I'm ready to get out of high school. Everything seems so trivial now. But I'm scared to death to leave. I can't imagine starting all over when it took me so long to get where I am now. I don't know if you realize but I didn't used to talk... at all. You can say I'm quiet now, but if you could see how far I've come you'd think differently. I'm not scared to be myself anymore. I'll tell you what I think. You want to know the real me? I love Jesus Christ my Savior. That fact alone makes me weird to some, but do you see me denying it? Never. And I've had plenty of chances.
I'm tired of being the girl that people are scared to talk to because I'm a "Christian" and I'd be disappointed in them for screwing up. If you only knew how many times I've screwed up...
Sometimes I think that if I was still shy my heart wouldn't have been broken so many times. I'd be more confident and willing to put myself out there more. But I guess that's just the stubborn girl in me that always picks the one that won't love me back. That's how the story always goes. Even if it seems to be working out in the beginning it's bound to end in disaster, so why bother? Giving up makes too much sense. I'm about to go to college and he won't have any idea where I am, but it won't bother him at all. He won't even notice.
Well, I guess I did have something to say...
Oh yeah, by the way, if you know a specific person that is so conceited they're going to end up alone for the rest of their lives, tell them before it's too late. I can't, he blocked me. Ironically because he thought I'd care enough to IM him. The funny thing is that I didn't even find out until someone else told me.
May God bless you and keep you near Him always.