Mind Games
i don't know what's going on anymore...i have no idea what's happening. why are things so goddamned complicated and why can't people just be direct with what their saying so that no misunderstandings occure. i ask what they mean and i get no answer, only tricksy little hints that leave me confussed. and yes...i come to conclusions only because i am trying desperately to figure things out and mend my mistakes. I try to find out the hidden meaning behind ever little thing you say...because i'm not given much else to work with. and for god's sakes, don't try to talk with me about something i know nothing about or am confussed about. just clarify so i understand..so that i am aware of the issue at hand. i feel like everything is hidden from me. like it's a game that i am not aloud to play, but am forced to be the victim of. and while they play their tricks, while they mess around with me, i am held in anxious confussion. what did i do wrong...where was my mistake? if someone could just point it out to me so i could go about fixing it or something. instead i am trapt in the dark with little narcs tearing at my mind: telling me one thing but meaning another...toying with my emotions and screwing around with my mind. little games...little mind game. i am so sick of it. please...please stop! just let me breathe relief..and let me see the light again. i'm so so confussed. what i did wrong, i don't know...won't anyone tell me? please...end this...it is madness.