my give a damn's busted
ok, so i have finally decided that its ok that im not exactly "cool" enough for someone. and thats fucking fine. i dont really care anyway. i dont smoke, i dont do drugs and i sure as hell do not look forward to the weekends just so i can get polished. so if that makes me not good enough to hang out with, fine. who the fuck cares what that person thinks anyway. so if this person wants to acknowledge that she is a complete two faced bitch, thats fucking fine. she can stay the hell out of my life. and im so fucking sick of how hot she thinks she is and hearing about all these guys that she's done and how they think she's so hot and its like, ok, shut up, so you're a slut, who the fuck cares. oh and by the way, im sick of making the effort to hang out. and im sick of this person saying what a good friend i am and how important i am to her and bla bla bla but honey, trust me, your actions speak a HELL of a lot louder than words. so apparently, i mean jack shit to you and you'd rather hang out with people that you can't even stand anyway and call me later to bitch about how fucking annoying they are and how you can only handle them in small doses. oh and also, im sick of being like, oh its ok, we can do something next time and pretending like its no big deal. if you dont want to hang out, just fucking tell me you don't want to hang out ever and thats fine with me. im so sick of your bitch ass and all your damn lies and excuses. you think im just some dumb ditzy blonde, and that i'll never figure out that you're lying to me, well you are wrong. you can't lie to me, because YOU SUCK AT IT. and im so fricking sick of all the problems that you have, but may i remind you, there are people out there whose parents dont want jack shit to do with them because all they care about is when they'll get their next fix, and kids out there that are getting raped by their parents, and there are people out there who haven't eaten in weeks and have never seen a doctor or a dentist. and there are kids out there that were not wanted, and in an attempted abortion by a witch doctor, got their limbs ripped off their body, but survived the so-called operation, only to be born with stumps for arms and legs and there are kids out there who are now in the foster care system because their parents are in jail for murder or robbery or on drug charges and there are kids out there who were left in a cardboard box in the middle of nowhere because their parents couldn't afford to feed them. so next time you want to tell me about how your parents treat you like crap because they wouldn't send you more money, or about how your slacking has caused you to do poorly in school, just remember that there are kids in this world that won't even make it to be old enough to go to college. and there are kids out there that wont even make it to elementary school because they'll die of disease or malnutrition before the age of five. to be a woman born in the US is to be luckier than 90% of the worlds population. and you should be thankful for that and for the parents that never abandoned you and provided far more than enough for you and never forced you to work and gave you money when you needed it. so next time you want to open your big mouth about how bad off you are, shut your fucking mouth and think about how god damn lucky you are to be doing what you are doing where you are doing it. not everbody is as priviledged as you. and instead of only thinking about you and doing what makes you happy, think about other people and how they might feel for once. it seems like they are only good enough for you if they can accomodate you, but you'll never ever even try to return the favor. like me, i'm only good enough for you if im willing to make the trip, but you'll never come to see me. well here's some news for you, im NOT coming to visit you. ever. so get on with your hot self, because i am through with you.