The spaceman says "Everybody look down, it's all in your mind."
Many changes abound. Only one cavity though. I've been trying hard to be a better person and I believe I am mostly succeeding, though being a more productive one is up to debate. I cannot really give evidence to either though I'm sure it's true. I really want to get "out there" and experience more of the world and the people that populate it, but I am afraid I do not fully know how. It seems like the best time to do this would be at parties or bars, where drinking is prevalent. But to be honest I hate meeting people at these places. Here's three scenarios:
1. I am fucked up and they are not, which usually entails me making an ass out of myself. I wouldn't say I am an asshole when I am drunk, but I would say I can take jokes too far and I am generally oblivious to the consequences of what I do or say. I'll never go out of my to really diss on someone (unless they deserve it) but I'm pretty sure some people don't understand when I am joking because I can play it pretty straight and I end up looking like an ass.
2. I am sober or nearly sober and the other person is just trashed. This usually ends with me walking away and trying to avoid them for the rest of the night, unless they were somehow miraculously cool or they are a friend. Being a sober person around drunk people is hilarious for the most part but at some point it crosses that line and it becomes "What the fuck? Do you even know what you are saying or doing? Why would someone willingly do this to themselves? This is fun? I hate drunks." I usually don't really judge people in this state though.
3. We are both are fucked up. Anything could happen, usually it's nothing special and involves totally "forgetting" about everything.
It all comes down to my perception that people are a lot less cool when they are drunk. This balanced against alcohol which can bring people out of their cage but inhibit connection. But I like drinking. Definitely a conundrum.
When I smoke however, I am very social but also very out of control goofy. So goofy that I look like a complete idiot, but I have a blast so I don't really give a fuck. I have been trying to "tone it down" but it's hard, less fun, and I never seem to be able to do it. I feel bad for those who meet me for the first time high or drunk and then base me on that meeting, because I am not that brazen of a dancer sober. In truth I am much lamer sober. But I like smoking too. Definitely a conundrum.
So addicted to facebook it's ridiculous.
Need more friends on here and on last.fm. If you just want to tell random people to read this go ahead. Or people who should read this. But no one really gives a fuck what you write if they don't like you or hate you.
I feel like a need to start writing more. And working out more. And reading more. More more mas. And figuring out what I want to do with this life.
1. I am fucked up and they are not, which usually entails me making an ass out of myself. I wouldn't say I am an asshole when I am drunk, but I would say I can take jokes too far and I am generally oblivious to the consequences of what I do or say. I'll never go out of my to really diss on someone (unless they deserve it) but I'm pretty sure some people don't understand when I am joking because I can play it pretty straight and I end up looking like an ass.
2. I am sober or nearly sober and the other person is just trashed. This usually ends with me walking away and trying to avoid them for the rest of the night, unless they were somehow miraculously cool or they are a friend. Being a sober person around drunk people is hilarious for the most part but at some point it crosses that line and it becomes "What the fuck? Do you even know what you are saying or doing? Why would someone willingly do this to themselves? This is fun? I hate drunks." I usually don't really judge people in this state though.
3. We are both are fucked up. Anything could happen, usually it's nothing special and involves totally "forgetting" about everything.
It all comes down to my perception that people are a lot less cool when they are drunk. This balanced against alcohol which can bring people out of their cage but inhibit connection. But I like drinking. Definitely a conundrum.
When I smoke however, I am very social but also very out of control goofy. So goofy that I look like a complete idiot, but I have a blast so I don't really give a fuck. I have been trying to "tone it down" but it's hard, less fun, and I never seem to be able to do it. I feel bad for those who meet me for the first time high or drunk and then base me on that meeting, because I am not that brazen of a dancer sober. In truth I am much lamer sober. But I like smoking too. Definitely a conundrum.
So addicted to facebook it's ridiculous.
Need more friends on here and on last.fm. If you just want to tell random people to read this go ahead. Or people who should read this. But no one really gives a fuck what you write if they don't like you or hate you.
I feel like a need to start writing more. And working out more. And reading more. More more mas. And figuring out what I want to do with this life.