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i'm incredibly large.
last monday, i went to the doctor's office for the monthly visit...i now weigh 144 lbs. this is the most i've ever weighed, ever. kind of ridiculous that i'm upset about it, considering that i'm SUPPOSED to be getting bigger....i don't know. it's just that much more weight i have to lose when the baby's here. speaking of that, you people (ie, Jack, Erin, Darren, AJ, Ben) need to get me your address so i can mail you shower invitations.
anyway...
i hate my past sometimes. i hate looking back and knowing that i should've been more brave, more honest, more trusting...i should've stood up for myself a lot more, too. and i don't let it torture me, most of the time. it is what it is, and there's no use getting all bent out of shape about things you can't change anymore. but sometimes...sometimes, it drives me insane. i don't know. it's probably just hormones.