sometimes it hurts so bad
i havent written in here in a long time and thats how my journal entry always starts. i dont feel like me right now.. these past 2 or 3 days have been so weird. i feel like i did last july and thats not good, i dont want to be there i dont want to be that person. i dont know how to stick up for myself and i need to. i know what the right thing is to do in my situation but for some reason i cant do it. i have gotten myself to far into it and i cant get out. its like i love him so much that it hurts.i dont have anyone to talk to anymore and its not that i need someone to tell me what to do i just need to clear my head.
im too forgiving i let people walk all over me and im over sensitive.
i need to stop and just let me be me. i hate being 17 everyone says its the best time
of your life but in all reality its not. i want to grow up and live MY life the way I want to. im not talking like i want to be 30 i'm saying i want to go away to college and have my boyfriend with me because when were together everything is so different and were different.
sometimes i feel like he doesnt care and he just says things to say them or to tell me what i want to hear. and i want him to talk to me from the bottom of his heart like i do. idk maybe its just me and im to emtional.
im too forgiving i let people walk all over me and im over sensitive.
i need to stop and just let me be me. i hate being 17 everyone says its the best time
of your life but in all reality its not. i want to grow up and live MY life the way I want to. im not talking like i want to be 30 i'm saying i want to go away to college and have my boyfriend with me because when were together everything is so different and were different.
sometimes i feel like he doesnt care and he just says things to say them or to tell me what i want to hear. and i want him to talk to me from the bottom of his heart like i do. idk maybe its just me and im to emtional.