Moments.
I wrote this last night in bed and now I'm typing it onto my lj, so be prepared for alot of deep rambling now!
BUT FIRST, TODAYS NEWS: school. work, blah blah blah, got to german, felt crap, and decided it would be better to go home and take a tablet than to stay in school and risk actually really getting sick, because Rome is tomorrow and all. I think in the process of leaving I really pissed ms.eliet off!!
now, what I wrote last night :
Isn't it funny how we want to keep some moments forever? How in one moment you could think wow I hope I never forget this or I hope this happens again. How life can seem problem free in a split second just because someone smiles at you. On a few other lj's I think Ruth and avrils they have been talking about how they hope they never forget some of those things. How you wish you could record every single moment that you loved so that you could cherish it forever. So that whenever you were sad or lonely you could go right back to those seconds you hoped you'd never forget. Well unfortunately we do forget and there aren't many ways around that. And yes I too, would take every word that people ever said to me and store it somewhere so I could hear it forever if I could. I would without any doubts. I hate when perfect feelings and moments are just vague memories sometimes, I wish you could just re-live them whenever you felt bad. Sure you can say "I was happy then" but you can't make yourself feel happy again. I wish you could. It's like once a time is gone, it's gone forever, and you will never ever get it back the exact same way it came. That's whats scary! And there is no point putting off nice times because you never want them to end.
You know what aswel? Sometimes I just need to hug someone for no reason, just to be like wow you care about me! It's stupid I know but I think people will know what I mean.
I don't know really but one of the nicest things in the world must be knowing that people care about you, and the worst thing must be being lonely. People everywhere always say they are surrounded by people but they feel alone. I think that that happens when you need relationships on a deeper level. I don't know though, maybe not. It's just something I have noticed.
You know what I just realised today (well yesterday since I wrote this yesterday!), my friends have the coolest eyes!! I know this is random but I'm serious! Niamh why do you say your eyes are boring? they're deep and dark and so cool!! Ruth, my god they are like little oceans! very cool!! Av, all the colours of the rainbow going on in your eyes!!! and everyone elses are deadly too!! how weird is this paragraph?!
I know people with cool eyes, I feel so priviliged! lol
God you know what is really freaking me out alot these days? What is going to happen after 6th year. Our group as we know it will be broken, people will be off in other places and we won't all be together! No break and lunch time together everyday! We don't appreciate MSN as much as we might need to! There could be times when we don't see anyone for a few weeks! It will be so hard to get used to! I am vowing now that I will not lose contact with people, my after school motto will be NO BREAK TIME? MAKE TIME! lol, omg I'm so scared about this! I will be seriously upset at the end of 6th year! SERIOUSLY! I will miss the teachers too, I know it's weird but I will, and I'll miss the building and the random walking down to the dort station for no reason, and the gardens, and the free "study classes" and the randomness! People we are going to have to grow up!! School is like a perfect blanket covering us all over and every so often we peek out and this is what we see, the real world that honestly looks quite scary to me! I'll miss the safety blanket!
Back to the moments, today (yesterday) there were at least 5 moments that I would happily remember for the rest of my life. I remember them now but tomorrow, next week, next month, I might not.
The only thing to hold onto is the when you let each moment go, theres nearly always more and maybe better ones on the way!
Well I hope there are!
NOW BACK TO TODAY: Niavus, I was thinking, I wouldn't exactly say we wern't friends with anyone in 3rd year at all, that would be a bit horsh to some people if you think about it! lol.
So anyhoo, I think I'm going to go take a tablet now. And finish packing. This jet-setting life style is really tiring me out!! God, Munich, Vienna, Rome, all in such a short space of time! It catches up on ya! haha lol, no I'm pretty lucky really and I've never been so grateful for so many things and people before than I am now. I know there's the bad stuff too but I'm trying to forget about that, and get rid of it if possible.
BUT FIRST, TODAYS NEWS: school. work, blah blah blah, got to german, felt crap, and decided it would be better to go home and take a tablet than to stay in school and risk actually really getting sick, because Rome is tomorrow and all. I think in the process of leaving I really pissed ms.eliet off!!
now, what I wrote last night :
Isn't it funny how we want to keep some moments forever? How in one moment you could think wow I hope I never forget this or I hope this happens again. How life can seem problem free in a split second just because someone smiles at you. On a few other lj's I think Ruth and avrils they have been talking about how they hope they never forget some of those things. How you wish you could record every single moment that you loved so that you could cherish it forever. So that whenever you were sad or lonely you could go right back to those seconds you hoped you'd never forget. Well unfortunately we do forget and there aren't many ways around that. And yes I too, would take every word that people ever said to me and store it somewhere so I could hear it forever if I could. I would without any doubts. I hate when perfect feelings and moments are just vague memories sometimes, I wish you could just re-live them whenever you felt bad. Sure you can say "I was happy then" but you can't make yourself feel happy again. I wish you could. It's like once a time is gone, it's gone forever, and you will never ever get it back the exact same way it came. That's whats scary! And there is no point putting off nice times because you never want them to end.
You know what aswel? Sometimes I just need to hug someone for no reason, just to be like wow you care about me! It's stupid I know but I think people will know what I mean.
I don't know really but one of the nicest things in the world must be knowing that people care about you, and the worst thing must be being lonely. People everywhere always say they are surrounded by people but they feel alone. I think that that happens when you need relationships on a deeper level. I don't know though, maybe not. It's just something I have noticed.
You know what I just realised today (well yesterday since I wrote this yesterday!), my friends have the coolest eyes!! I know this is random but I'm serious! Niamh why do you say your eyes are boring? they're deep and dark and so cool!! Ruth, my god they are like little oceans! very cool!! Av, all the colours of the rainbow going on in your eyes!!! and everyone elses are deadly too!! how weird is this paragraph?!
I know people with cool eyes, I feel so priviliged! lol
God you know what is really freaking me out alot these days? What is going to happen after 6th year. Our group as we know it will be broken, people will be off in other places and we won't all be together! No break and lunch time together everyday! We don't appreciate MSN as much as we might need to! There could be times when we don't see anyone for a few weeks! It will be so hard to get used to! I am vowing now that I will not lose contact with people, my after school motto will be NO BREAK TIME? MAKE TIME! lol, omg I'm so scared about this! I will be seriously upset at the end of 6th year! SERIOUSLY! I will miss the teachers too, I know it's weird but I will, and I'll miss the building and the random walking down to the dort station for no reason, and the gardens, and the free "study classes" and the randomness! People we are going to have to grow up!! School is like a perfect blanket covering us all over and every so often we peek out and this is what we see, the real world that honestly looks quite scary to me! I'll miss the safety blanket!
Back to the moments, today (yesterday) there were at least 5 moments that I would happily remember for the rest of my life. I remember them now but tomorrow, next week, next month, I might not.
The only thing to hold onto is the when you let each moment go, theres nearly always more and maybe better ones on the way!
Well I hope there are!
NOW BACK TO TODAY: Niavus, I was thinking, I wouldn't exactly say we wern't friends with anyone in 3rd year at all, that would be a bit horsh to some people if you think about it! lol.
So anyhoo, I think I'm going to go take a tablet now. And finish packing. This jet-setting life style is really tiring me out!! God, Munich, Vienna, Rome, all in such a short space of time! It catches up on ya! haha lol, no I'm pretty lucky really and I've never been so grateful for so many things and people before than I am now. I know there's the bad stuff too but I'm trying to forget about that, and get rid of it if possible.