To Your Health!
Hey LJ Friends! Guess what? I think I'm falling in love with livejournal again, and it's a good thing. I missed it.
Also as those rare few who've seen me lately know: I'VE BEEN SICK THREE TIMES IN THE PAST MONTH!
I just finally today got the last of the third round out of me (I think) and let me tell you it feels great. The third time I got sick, the lightbulb in my head FINALLY lit up that said, hey daniele, maybe you should try FUCKIN taking care of yo' self! so i said, ok, FINE if you INSIST i'll take some days off drinking, i'll eat some vegetable, I'll lay off the cigarettes, hell I'll even get extra sleep, and you know what? IT WORKED!!!!!
I FEEL GREAT! this whole little epsiode has served as a very good wake up call, i think I really will be thinking more about how to take care of myself. Which brings up the question? Does anyone have advice/companionship for a way for me to regain my former flexibility? I bike a fair amount which will only increase as the weather improves so I feel my cardio bases are pretty well covered, but my flexibilty has gone down the shitter, also since I'm no longer lifting bags of recycling day in and day out, perhaps I could even use some advice/companionship on lifting weights/muscle stuff.
Also with my day off work/get better day, I was very productive. After a lovely previous evening of hangouts at my home, Jill and I met for coffee and Jill-is-the-best-therapists-EVAR time. and it was wonderful. daniele <3 jill. then i went home and swept and mopped the first floor of my house, THEN i went to a beauty supply store in greenpoint and got bleach, THEN i went to ryan's and we made ourselves healthy sandwiches with baked chips for lunch and he bleached my roots. my hair now looks like this:
(excuse goofy face!) THANKS BWNK!
Then we lounged around, watched old dr who, made a BIG collage VERY quickly, and greeted the man delivering the cool new mod furniture. we also eventually made dinner then read books before heading to my place for sleepy times. it was kind of a "boring day" but it was what i needed.
I've mentioned i've been physically sick, but the truth is i've been psychologically a bit of a wreck too. I had a really good talk with jill that helped me out a lot, and i had a little bit of a "ahhh i can't handle anything, i need the world to stop existing right now, but the closest equivalent of that is to close my eyes break down and cry in my boyfriend's arms" moment with ryan and as much as those moments suck i think i needed to be honest and admit to those closest to me that: no actually i'm not doing ok. have i been less talkative? am i not social at parties? well honestly it because everytime i'm around people my inner dialogue is something along the lines of "why are you here? this is all so pointless and shallow? wait, no daniele, even meaningful lives have quotidienne moments just act normal. OMFG, what is fucking wrong with you? why did you say that? you're a fucking idiot. why are you even around these people? you're not like them? they're DOING things. they're beautiful. they take care of themselves. just shut up and walk away you slob" yeah, i can't say it's all abated but if you're reading this it means i'm actually admitting it and how silly it is but ok, cause everyone gets insecure so that's a first step. i've seriously written about this then made the entry private waaaay too many times. long story short, i really think things are going to get better, but then again maybe i'm just on an emotional upswing cause of this BEAUTIFUL weather! (but let's hope not)
also i've been very productive craft-wise! katherine and i have been printing and i've been sewing more too! i hope to post my wares in a later, but still soon, post!
last but not least, i'm still waiting to hear back about a second interview for CENYC. i had my first interview, i thought it went really well, but the guy interviewing me was very up front about the fact that there were over 200 applications and he hadn't even looked over 100 of them yet. he said it'd be at least two weeks till i heard anything. so two days later i sent him a thank you email for the interview and bidded my time. two weeks officially passed two tuesday later and by three days after that (last friday) i still hadn't heard anything so I sent in a short but sweet, just checking in email. five minutes later i got a short email from the guy saying they were still in the process, so now my question is, it's been another week, what's my next step and when do i take it? remember this is the job of my DREAMS and i'll do ANYTHING in my power to get it. so lj friends, advice?
also apologies for super long post-ness!
Also as those rare few who've seen me lately know: I'VE BEEN SICK THREE TIMES IN THE PAST MONTH!
I just finally today got the last of the third round out of me (I think) and let me tell you it feels great. The third time I got sick, the lightbulb in my head FINALLY lit up that said, hey daniele, maybe you should try FUCKIN taking care of yo' self! so i said, ok, FINE if you INSIST i'll take some days off drinking, i'll eat some vegetable, I'll lay off the cigarettes, hell I'll even get extra sleep, and you know what? IT WORKED!!!!!
I FEEL GREAT! this whole little epsiode has served as a very good wake up call, i think I really will be thinking more about how to take care of myself. Which brings up the question? Does anyone have advice/companionship for a way for me to regain my former flexibility? I bike a fair amount which will only increase as the weather improves so I feel my cardio bases are pretty well covered, but my flexibilty has gone down the shitter, also since I'm no longer lifting bags of recycling day in and day out, perhaps I could even use some advice/companionship on lifting weights/muscle stuff.
Also with my day off work/get better day, I was very productive. After a lovely previous evening of hangouts at my home, Jill and I met for coffee and Jill-is-the-best-therapists-EVAR time. and it was wonderful. daniele <3 jill. then i went home and swept and mopped the first floor of my house, THEN i went to a beauty supply store in greenpoint and got bleach, THEN i went to ryan's and we made ourselves healthy sandwiches with baked chips for lunch and he bleached my roots. my hair now looks like this:
(excuse goofy face!) THANKS BWNK!
Then we lounged around, watched old dr who, made a BIG collage VERY quickly, and greeted the man delivering the cool new mod furniture. we also eventually made dinner then read books before heading to my place for sleepy times. it was kind of a "boring day" but it was what i needed.
I've mentioned i've been physically sick, but the truth is i've been psychologically a bit of a wreck too. I had a really good talk with jill that helped me out a lot, and i had a little bit of a "ahhh i can't handle anything, i need the world to stop existing right now, but the closest equivalent of that is to close my eyes break down and cry in my boyfriend's arms" moment with ryan and as much as those moments suck i think i needed to be honest and admit to those closest to me that: no actually i'm not doing ok. have i been less talkative? am i not social at parties? well honestly it because everytime i'm around people my inner dialogue is something along the lines of "why are you here? this is all so pointless and shallow? wait, no daniele, even meaningful lives have quotidienne moments just act normal. OMFG, what is fucking wrong with you? why did you say that? you're a fucking idiot. why are you even around these people? you're not like them? they're DOING things. they're beautiful. they take care of themselves. just shut up and walk away you slob" yeah, i can't say it's all abated but if you're reading this it means i'm actually admitting it and how silly it is but ok, cause everyone gets insecure so that's a first step. i've seriously written about this then made the entry private waaaay too many times. long story short, i really think things are going to get better, but then again maybe i'm just on an emotional upswing cause of this BEAUTIFUL weather! (but let's hope not)
also i've been very productive craft-wise! katherine and i have been printing and i've been sewing more too! i hope to post my wares in a later, but still soon, post!
last but not least, i'm still waiting to hear back about a second interview for CENYC. i had my first interview, i thought it went really well, but the guy interviewing me was very up front about the fact that there were over 200 applications and he hadn't even looked over 100 of them yet. he said it'd be at least two weeks till i heard anything. so two days later i sent him a thank you email for the interview and bidded my time. two weeks officially passed two tuesday later and by three days after that (last friday) i still hadn't heard anything so I sent in a short but sweet, just checking in email. five minutes later i got a short email from the guy saying they were still in the process, so now my question is, it's been another week, what's my next step and when do i take it? remember this is the job of my DREAMS and i'll do ANYTHING in my power to get it. so lj friends, advice?
also apologies for super long post-ness!