me today...
today was slightly better than yesterday which was slightly better than the day before. but i think that's only because i went to yoga last night and again at lunch today.
thankfully there IS yoga. last night's class was "restorative" and we did lots of twists. funny enough, that's what got the knot OUT of my stomach so that the knot that's been sitting in my stomach since Monday is gone. i still have that chest-clenching feeling in my heart every time i think about work too much. so there you go. my plan has not changed. i have been looking around. we'll see what i see.
in good news (and i know the minute i post about it something will Happen) Azrael has been better this week. she has also been drinking less water. i don't get quite as upset anymore because It Is What It Is and we are doing the best we can for her. but it gives one hope to go a full week without An Incident. honestly, i think sometimes she's just MAD that we're not with her. for a standoffish cat, she sure does seem to like having us around. just not PETTING her. or LOOKING at her. or TOUCHING her.
she's funny. i gave her an allover bath last week and the next morning her towels weren't dry. i put them on the bathroom floor so i could take my shower. (i have like, zero towel bars, which when i redo MY bathroom someday, i will remedy.) she adopted one of the towels and wouldn't move off it so i could hang it back up. she was still there when we left for work. she was there (still? again?) when we got home from work. ... the towel is still there. she lays on it ALL THE TIME now. i don't mind. she can have her towel and it is preferable to her hiding behind the toilet all the time.
maybe this is what has prompted her to be more sociable (out and about) and less acting out. she was getting in trouble and hiding behind the toilet. then feeling left out and unloved and ignored. so she would act out the minute we were gone. cue more trouble and unhappiness. cue more pulling away. dunno. she's so hard to read. Gabby is much easier. "OHAI! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! I WANT TO PLAY! WILL YOU EET WIF MEE? I LOVE TO BE PETTED WHILE I EETS! NOW SIT SO I CAN YOU CAN PET ME WHILE I STOMP ON YOUR BITS! KTHNX." annnnd, repeat.
meanwhile, the bathroom saga is slowly, slowly, inch by inch, moving forward. TWD's nephew came to put in moooost of the bathroom tile up to the last three rows. we have to decide (which i don't know why we couldn't have decided before he came) what deco tiles and in what order we want so that row can go in, and then the last two rows of plain tile, and the last row of skinny tile and the shower shelves.
THEN it ALL GETS GROUTED!! FLOOR AND SHOWER TILES!! that, to me, is the "hump" if you will and everything else will be the downhill roll toward the finish. we can paint the rest, put the toilet back, put in the vanity, the light, the mirror we choose, and the MEDICINE CABINET THAT STARTED THE WHOLE BATHROOM DEMOLITION. lol. i will be so happy to open the cabinet and close it. and open and close it. just to say, "we put in a medicine cabinet!" (and by "we" i mean, i did nothing but give my opinions on what stuff looks like.) ... i hope he lets me weigh in on what kind of rugs he wants. i'm good at that kind of bathroom redesign stuff!
so yeah. i wish we had already known what tile to go where because then our tile would be done NOW. c'est la vie. i try to be patient but there IS forward progress, so i can't exactly get too upset. if there was zero work happening i am sure i would be a lot more aggravated.
3 weeks left of festival. we are 2/3 over. phoo. i am having so much fun with this character, but i would be surprised if she was recurring. i will be sad to say goodbye to the role. but still! three more weekends! loss of caber toss (practice) and haggis hurling to go yet. :) lots of arguing to do, too. i'm good at that. it's fun to play an argumentative character when i'm so NOT argumentative in real life. like, >i< just let things slide. but her?? oh no. NOTHING slides. it's kind of awesome to play that. mostly it's petty "fun" stuff to argue about, too, like who got the queen's cup, who should be in line ahead of whom, etc., etc. and people look at you really strange when the Princess is standing there being berated by 2-3 courtiers about "showing her hair IN PUBLIC!" (shocking, i know.) so much fun.
and i'm at war with a countess at the moment. our characters don't like each other, but i fired a huge shot and now i know i'm going to get it. can't wait to see how THIS plays out. it should be fun fun fun. ... now if they would just take that damnable rain out of the weekend forecast ...
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thankfully there IS yoga. last night's class was "restorative" and we did lots of twists. funny enough, that's what got the knot OUT of my stomach so that the knot that's been sitting in my stomach since Monday is gone. i still have that chest-clenching feeling in my heart every time i think about work too much. so there you go. my plan has not changed. i have been looking around. we'll see what i see.
in good news (and i know the minute i post about it something will Happen) Azrael has been better this week. she has also been drinking less water. i don't get quite as upset anymore because It Is What It Is and we are doing the best we can for her. but it gives one hope to go a full week without An Incident. honestly, i think sometimes she's just MAD that we're not with her. for a standoffish cat, she sure does seem to like having us around. just not PETTING her. or LOOKING at her. or TOUCHING her.
she's funny. i gave her an allover bath last week and the next morning her towels weren't dry. i put them on the bathroom floor so i could take my shower. (i have like, zero towel bars, which when i redo MY bathroom someday, i will remedy.) she adopted one of the towels and wouldn't move off it so i could hang it back up. she was still there when we left for work. she was there (still? again?) when we got home from work. ... the towel is still there. she lays on it ALL THE TIME now. i don't mind. she can have her towel and it is preferable to her hiding behind the toilet all the time.
maybe this is what has prompted her to be more sociable (out and about) and less acting out. she was getting in trouble and hiding behind the toilet. then feeling left out and unloved and ignored. so she would act out the minute we were gone. cue more trouble and unhappiness. cue more pulling away. dunno. she's so hard to read. Gabby is much easier. "OHAI! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! I WANT TO PLAY! WILL YOU EET WIF MEE? I LOVE TO BE PETTED WHILE I EETS! NOW SIT SO I CAN YOU CAN PET ME WHILE I STOMP ON YOUR BITS! KTHNX." annnnd, repeat.
meanwhile, the bathroom saga is slowly, slowly, inch by inch, moving forward. TWD's nephew came to put in moooost of the bathroom tile up to the last three rows. we have to decide (which i don't know why we couldn't have decided before he came) what deco tiles and in what order we want so that row can go in, and then the last two rows of plain tile, and the last row of skinny tile and the shower shelves.
THEN it ALL GETS GROUTED!! FLOOR AND SHOWER TILES!! that, to me, is the "hump" if you will and everything else will be the downhill roll toward the finish. we can paint the rest, put the toilet back, put in the vanity, the light, the mirror we choose, and the MEDICINE CABINET THAT STARTED THE WHOLE BATHROOM DEMOLITION. lol. i will be so happy to open the cabinet and close it. and open and close it. just to say, "we put in a medicine cabinet!" (and by "we" i mean, i did nothing but give my opinions on what stuff looks like.) ... i hope he lets me weigh in on what kind of rugs he wants. i'm good at that kind of bathroom redesign stuff!
so yeah. i wish we had already known what tile to go where because then our tile would be done NOW. c'est la vie. i try to be patient but there IS forward progress, so i can't exactly get too upset. if there was zero work happening i am sure i would be a lot more aggravated.
3 weeks left of festival. we are 2/3 over. phoo. i am having so much fun with this character, but i would be surprised if she was recurring. i will be sad to say goodbye to the role. but still! three more weekends! loss of caber toss (practice) and haggis hurling to go yet. :) lots of arguing to do, too. i'm good at that. it's fun to play an argumentative character when i'm so NOT argumentative in real life. like, >i< just let things slide. but her?? oh no. NOTHING slides. it's kind of awesome to play that. mostly it's petty "fun" stuff to argue about, too, like who got the queen's cup, who should be in line ahead of whom, etc., etc. and people look at you really strange when the Princess is standing there being berated by 2-3 courtiers about "showing her hair IN PUBLIC!" (shocking, i know.) so much fun.
and i'm at war with a countess at the moment. our characters don't like each other, but i fired a huge shot and now i know i'm going to get it. can't wait to see how THIS plays out. it should be fun fun fun. ... now if they would just take that damnable rain out of the weekend forecast ...
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