things i can't bear

[dawnthesnail]

i don't know how i ever used to wear jeans often.
seems like a long time ago.
but actually, less than a year.

i thought 6 months away wldn't change much
it's only 6 isn't it.
i go, do my stuff,
whoever stays, does their stuff.
we're back
i'm back to life/school.

now all the little changes are popping up everywhere

how i really can't take the heat
i'm sure the temp went up at least 5 deg since i've been gone
i don't believe it's all just relative.

my views about hanging on or letting go.
about what i need in life
how to get my priorities right
what am i really looking for
what do i really want

we cannot let ourselves remained trapped
in the world, of maybes, what ifs, if onlys

i feel like my brain's taken a holiday.
since monday's pinup.
i'm afraid it's not really coming back

so many points of time
i'm just restless.