Look at yourself
If you looked at your self, your life, your time on earth, could you see the changes you're making? Could you see the world around you changing? From the 1980's to now, so much has changed, but could you see it? Take your life, throw it up on the screen, would you watch that movie? Or would it bore you? If you haven't made the changes necessary to make a story worth watching, is it possible you aren't making changes enough to be on earth? Or are those stories only available to specific people? Someone might go so far as to say that those people with stories worth screen time, are only able to do what they're doing because other people (with non-screen-worthy stories,) continue their lives as if those small changes they're making makes a difference. As if taking out the garbage is a sign for Eddie Vedder to keep writing his potent lyrics, or Kevin Spacey to keep acting. As if my working at Hastings helps to keep Mel Gibson acting and Robert Rodriguez directing. Sure my working at Hastings helps to keep the Hastings corporation (which is one of those lovely/evil corporations) in business, and helps give small towns their access to renting those wonderful stories to put up on their own small screens at home. But is anything I'm doing worth anything? Is it necessary to be here if you aren't making a difference?
I know what you're going to say. You're going to say, "But Skye every minute you're here you make a difference just by being able to be called on by anyone for help." or "But Skye everything you do makes a difference to someone." Maybe you'd say "Skye you've helped me in 'such and such' manner," but it all boils down to the same thing: if it's not screenworthy why do it? Maybe I should be giving money to starving children, but even that isn't an assured way to help someone. Those children don't even get half of what is sent to them by people watching that big-eyed child on their television screen. Did you know that? The money that you send doesn't necessarily go to the child you receive a picture of, and drawings from. That money goes to help in paying off local officials, and keeping the film crews over there. It's the biggest pyramid scheme. But perhaps I'm "late at night cynical." I can't possibly see people flocking to the theaters to see my movie. Though I sometimes think the everyday person should get a movie of their own. Not that "reality television," crap, but a serious biography. Everyone has to have something worth the time of someone else. That's why we all love gossip so much right? But who knows.
The cursor blinks in its defiant motion for me to keep typing. As if suddenly I'm going to have some fantastically epiphinal moment of thought. It waits for me to continue typing what it knows will be utter crap. Just like all those minutes I've spent here on this earth. People say, the everyday stuff you do, the everyday decisions you make, the everyday people you help, is what makes life worth living. But if you're doing all that and it isn't movie-worthy why do it at all? Why continue typing?
I know what you're going to say. You're going to say, "But Skye every minute you're here you make a difference just by being able to be called on by anyone for help." or "But Skye everything you do makes a difference to someone." Maybe you'd say "Skye you've helped me in 'such and such' manner," but it all boils down to the same thing: if it's not screenworthy why do it? Maybe I should be giving money to starving children, but even that isn't an assured way to help someone. Those children don't even get half of what is sent to them by people watching that big-eyed child on their television screen. Did you know that? The money that you send doesn't necessarily go to the child you receive a picture of, and drawings from. That money goes to help in paying off local officials, and keeping the film crews over there. It's the biggest pyramid scheme. But perhaps I'm "late at night cynical." I can't possibly see people flocking to the theaters to see my movie. Though I sometimes think the everyday person should get a movie of their own. Not that "reality television," crap, but a serious biography. Everyone has to have something worth the time of someone else. That's why we all love gossip so much right? But who knows.
The cursor blinks in its defiant motion for me to keep typing. As if suddenly I'm going to have some fantastically epiphinal moment of thought. It waits for me to continue typing what it knows will be utter crap. Just like all those minutes I've spent here on this earth. People say, the everyday stuff you do, the everyday decisions you make, the everyday people you help, is what makes life worth living. But if you're doing all that and it isn't movie-worthy why do it at all? Why continue typing?