[j] Well, that wasn't the news I was expecting to hear this morning. Not even close.

Dec 04, 2005 13:32

It's been hours since Buffy told me, and I don't know. It feels even less real than when mom ( Read more... )

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watcher_pryce December 4 2005, 21:45:05 UTC
I'm terribly sorry about your loss, Dawn. You and I aren't really close, but if you ever need to talk...

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dawnie_summers_ December 4 2005, 21:54:16 UTC
Thanks, Wesley. That actually means a lot, you know? I'm not even sure what I'd talk about right now though. Everything feels too messed up for that.

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watcher_pryce December 4 2005, 21:56:34 UTC
Oh, yes. I'm sure you're rather confused at the moment. I wish I could give you some advice on how to deal with this, but I'm not the best person to do so.

Except, give it time. And talk to someone, anyone. It's not good to bottle things up inside. Or so I've heard

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dawnie_summers_ December 4 2005, 22:02:10 UTC
Confused. Not a bad way to put it. What am I supposed to feel right now is pretty much what I keep wondering. As much as I wished he was around, he never was. He was never a real father, but I know everyone's going to expect me to be sad, to be upset because he's gone... I don't know. I'm just really...not.

I guess after mom I just sorta gave up on the dream of him being someone I could count on.

Giving it time's a good idea. And I'll find someone to talk to later. Promise. It's not like I'm lacking people around who care about me, right?

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watcher_pryce December 4 2005, 22:10:53 UTC
Ah, yes. I *do* know how that feels, oddly enough. The everyone expecting you to be sad and upset when you're really not. Just listen to your feelings, Dawn. It doesn't matter what everyone else expects you to do, that's not important right now. You, on the other hand, are.

It's hard to give up on a dream, especially when reality is such a nightmare. Don't give up on all your dreams, Dawn. You'll need some of those, trust me.

Giving time usually works and I'm sure there are more then enough people there to listen to you. Willow, or Giles. Xander perhaps? And there is Buffy of course. How is Buffy holding up, really?

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dawnie_summers_ December 4 2005, 23:39:56 UTC
Thanks, Wes. Perspective: Helpful.

I'll try not to let go of all of them. I'm just not sure what the rest of them are right now.

Yeah, any and all would be more than willing if I asked, I'm sure. As for Buffy...I don't think she's doing much better than I am right now. Not that we've really talked much today. She kinda hasn't been home either though.

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