*sigh* So can't stay asleep....
Okay...let's just start off by saying...Monday? Suckiest day in the longest time...and it started before the warning bell had even rung at school...that's gotta be some kind of record.
Kit and I stumbled across one of our classmates this morning...and he had been killed. Granted, R.J. was never exactly one of my favourite people, but still never wanted that to happen to him. I mean, I've gone to school with him for over half my life...
But yeah...After that, Kit and I were not sticking around for classes after that...True, Buffy did tell me to go to class...didn't really care though. Kind of a typical reaction with me to a bad start to a day at Hellmouth High though. Ditch.
From there we went to the park for a while, sorta played on the swings, but more or less used them as chairs...she asked if I'd ever thought about getting out of Sunnydale. I think she was suprised by my answer...but it was the truth. I told her no...why would I? Everyone I love is here...my entire family is here, including my dad. Mom is buried here. My home is here. Everyone I love is here. I can't really imagine living anywhere else. Sometimes I really hate all the terrible stuff that happens here...but Sunnydale is my home, and I really don't think anywhere else could come close to being that...especially not if my family was still here... sometimes I really wonder if Mike is as okay with that as he says he is...I mean, he says he's fine with going to UC Sunnydale...but I'm sure there have got to be other schools that he would have wanted to study at, you know?
After the park, Kit and I went back to her apartment, and we had a nap...had her set the alarm so I didn't forget to go over to Connor's and ask him about the spell for Willow. I should really spend more time with Kit...I've missed her. But she's been just as busy with everything and trying to spend time with Carlos as I have with Mike, so...
Anyway...went over to Connor's...didn't really know anything more about the spell than what he'd told us, so that was a bit of a bust. things as per usual in the past 2 months got stressful and weird between us again and we argued...I just wish he could understand that he's not the one in my heart, and won't ever be...
Came home after that, since it was getting dark, and the smart girl I am, I left the car at school...kinda needed to get home...Found Faith asleep in my bed...ended up waking her up, and talked with her for a bit...then we researched until I felt so stressed out she made me go upstairs and sleep...or at least attempt to...had issues doing so with the way things were going...
Then Mike came home...that's the good part of the day...many nice distracting kisses and fooling around. *smiles* Then Xander interrupted us, 'cause Buffy had been hurt on patrol...and the reality of the craptastic day I'd been having crashed in on me again. It was bad...potientally really bad if we didn't find a solution...so Mike and I went to work with the researching again...find out some things, then the work gets mostly passed to Willow and Tara to do a locator spell, so Mike and I decided to go up to bed...only Connor shows up at the door...he feels bad...because he had made me cry...so we talk for a few minutes...then he finds out about Buffy, and he and Spike went out and tracked the demon...and Mike and I went upstairs.
'Nother small happy moment...Charlie knocking on the door and climbing into the bed with us and snuggled in between us...it was so cute...the three of us fall asleep finally...
Again with that pesky reality...Willow wakes me up...Connor and Spike had found Kit while they were out killing the demom...she's hurt...so completely sick of this day, seriously...I doubt I could have taken much more...
So Kit calls Carlos, since she was going to stay at the house for the night, and wanted him here...and I went to go lock up the front door, knowing Kit could let him in after I'd gone up...in this house we make sure the door's pretty much always locked. Anyway...notice Connor still standing out there...still not sure why...so we talked for a bit, then I waited with Kit till Carlos got here...then went upstairs to find Mike awake...which was nice...we talked for a bit...I complained that I was tempted to kick Charlie out of bed so that I could curl up in his arms...he didn't seem to think that was very nice...pointed out I have issues sharing him and practically get jealous when he pays attention to his homework and not me...which lead him to say something to the effect of "You mean I should write about and over you and study you in great detail?" (Gotta say, I do like this plan, and am going to have to scheme some way to accomplish it...) That of course lead to us wanting our neice back in her own room even more...*sigh* Mike was tired anyway though, so we decided to sleep...
That lasted about an hour and half for me...not good...
I should go try to get a bit more sleep before the sun gets up...hopefully I can shake the nagging paranoia that something else is gonna happen...not that I blame my brain for thinking that at this point...
Kit and I stumbled across one of our classmates this morning...and he had been killed. Granted, R.J. was never exactly one of my favourite people, but still never wanted that to happen to him. I mean, I've gone to school with him for over half my life...
But yeah...After that, Kit and I were not sticking around for classes after that...True, Buffy did tell me to go to class...didn't really care though. Kind of a typical reaction with me to a bad start to a day at Hellmouth High though. Ditch.
From there we went to the park for a while, sorta played on the swings, but more or less used them as chairs...she asked if I'd ever thought about getting out of Sunnydale. I think she was suprised by my answer...but it was the truth. I told her no...why would I? Everyone I love is here...my entire family is here, including my dad. Mom is buried here. My home is here. Everyone I love is here. I can't really imagine living anywhere else. Sometimes I really hate all the terrible stuff that happens here...but Sunnydale is my home, and I really don't think anywhere else could come close to being that...especially not if my family was still here... sometimes I really wonder if Mike is as okay with that as he says he is...I mean, he says he's fine with going to UC Sunnydale...but I'm sure there have got to be other schools that he would have wanted to study at, you know?
After the park, Kit and I went back to her apartment, and we had a nap...had her set the alarm so I didn't forget to go over to Connor's and ask him about the spell for Willow. I should really spend more time with Kit...I've missed her. But she's been just as busy with everything and trying to spend time with Carlos as I have with Mike, so...
Anyway...went over to Connor's...didn't really know anything more about the spell than what he'd told us, so that was a bit of a bust. things as per usual in the past 2 months got stressful and weird between us again and we argued...I just wish he could understand that he's not the one in my heart, and won't ever be...
Came home after that, since it was getting dark, and the smart girl I am, I left the car at school...kinda needed to get home...Found Faith asleep in my bed...ended up waking her up, and talked with her for a bit...then we researched until I felt so stressed out she made me go upstairs and sleep...or at least attempt to...had issues doing so with the way things were going...
Then Mike came home...that's the good part of the day...many nice distracting kisses and fooling around. *smiles* Then Xander interrupted us, 'cause Buffy had been hurt on patrol...and the reality of the craptastic day I'd been having crashed in on me again. It was bad...potientally really bad if we didn't find a solution...so Mike and I went to work with the researching again...find out some things, then the work gets mostly passed to Willow and Tara to do a locator spell, so Mike and I decided to go up to bed...only Connor shows up at the door...he feels bad...because he had made me cry...so we talk for a few minutes...then he finds out about Buffy, and he and Spike went out and tracked the demon...and Mike and I went upstairs.
'Nother small happy moment...Charlie knocking on the door and climbing into the bed with us and snuggled in between us...it was so cute...the three of us fall asleep finally...
Again with that pesky reality...Willow wakes me up...Connor and Spike had found Kit while they were out killing the demom...she's hurt...so completely sick of this day, seriously...I doubt I could have taken much more...
So Kit calls Carlos, since she was going to stay at the house for the night, and wanted him here...and I went to go lock up the front door, knowing Kit could let him in after I'd gone up...in this house we make sure the door's pretty much always locked. Anyway...notice Connor still standing out there...still not sure why...so we talked for a bit, then I waited with Kit till Carlos got here...then went upstairs to find Mike awake...which was nice...we talked for a bit...I complained that I was tempted to kick Charlie out of bed so that I could curl up in his arms...he didn't seem to think that was very nice...pointed out I have issues sharing him and practically get jealous when he pays attention to his homework and not me...which lead him to say something to the effect of "You mean I should write about and over you and study you in great detail?" (Gotta say, I do like this plan, and am going to have to scheme some way to accomplish it...) That of course lead to us wanting our neice back in her own room even more...*sigh* Mike was tired anyway though, so we decided to sleep...
That lasted about an hour and half for me...not good...
I should go try to get a bit more sleep before the sun gets up...hopefully I can shake the nagging paranoia that something else is gonna happen...not that I blame my brain for thinking that at this point...