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k so.
i just applied to starbucks where rachel works.
well, not just. but like an hour ago.
so we'll see. :]
i was supposed to go get a new phone today.
buuut. that didn't happen. so i don't know when.
soon though. yaaa.
i had to work at beans and brews on 900 south and 500 east
today. and since i'm all scared to drive on the freeway because
i'd get lost...i just took all the normal roads so it took me long.
and then, to add to that..there's construction. and so i couldn't find
it. then after driving around forever trying tofigure out where to go,
i saw it. but i didn't know how to get into
the parking lot because the road was all weird. but, i made it.
it's boring there. ha.
um. i'm totally lost on what to do about masters.
i was so sure and had my mind made up that i was going
to go to albuquerque. and it felt right.
but then on friday, i talked to johnny. and he was telling
me some stuff and definitely made me start thinking more.
it's driving me crazy. maybe i'm not supposed
to go to albuquerque. maybe manteca is where i need to go.
i want to do both. i wish this wasn't so hard.
but...maybe i'm thinking too much. if i just stop and listen to God..
he'll tell me. i'm just scared that i'm going to make the wrong choice.
but is there a wrong choice? i mean...maybe it's just..good and better?
there's SO much going through my mind about it and i can't stop thinking
about it. i've been praying too. but i just wish that an answer would
come right now.
i was thinking i could go to albuquerque for at least the first year..and
then see from there. and that would be alright. because then i wouldn't miss
sara's graduation next year. and i could still go to manteca for my second
and third year. but what if i'm not meant to go to albuquerque.
then...it's not like it would be a waste of a year. because i know
i'd grow and become a stronger person and my relationship with God
is going to grow no matter what. but in a sense it's like i wouldn't
get everything that i could've. if that makes any sense to you.
just..please help me pray. it would mean so much. thank you.
i just applied to starbucks where rachel works.
well, not just. but like an hour ago.
so we'll see. :]
i was supposed to go get a new phone today.
buuut. that didn't happen. so i don't know when.
soon though. yaaa.
i had to work at beans and brews on 900 south and 500 east
today. and since i'm all scared to drive on the freeway because
i'd get lost...i just took all the normal roads so it took me long.
and then, to add to that..there's construction. and so i couldn't find
it. then after driving around forever trying tofigure out where to go,
i saw it. but i didn't know how to get into
the parking lot because the road was all weird. but, i made it.
it's boring there. ha.
um. i'm totally lost on what to do about masters.
i was so sure and had my mind made up that i was going
to go to albuquerque. and it felt right.
but then on friday, i talked to johnny. and he was telling
me some stuff and definitely made me start thinking more.
it's driving me crazy. maybe i'm not supposed
to go to albuquerque. maybe manteca is where i need to go.
i want to do both. i wish this wasn't so hard.
but...maybe i'm thinking too much. if i just stop and listen to God..
he'll tell me. i'm just scared that i'm going to make the wrong choice.
but is there a wrong choice? i mean...maybe it's just..good and better?
there's SO much going through my mind about it and i can't stop thinking
about it. i've been praying too. but i just wish that an answer would
come right now.
i was thinking i could go to albuquerque for at least the first year..and
then see from there. and that would be alright. because then i wouldn't miss
sara's graduation next year. and i could still go to manteca for my second
and third year. but what if i'm not meant to go to albuquerque.
then...it's not like it would be a waste of a year. because i know
i'd grow and become a stronger person and my relationship with God
is going to grow no matter what. but in a sense it's like i wouldn't
get everything that i could've. if that makes any sense to you.
just..please help me pray. it would mean so much. thank you.