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I've been in such a funk the last 2 weeks and I'm not really sure what's wrong. I feel sad and frustrated and I'm so tired of this semester. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I just feel like I'm going through the motions with school, I don't particularly enjoy my classes and I don't feel like I'm learning anything new. I'm just taking the classes to take them and get credit. Statistics is a big joke, I'm only taking it b/c I have to, Intro to design I'm only taking b/c I need a bazillion studio art credits, intro to pro photo can be interesting though but I'm not actually going to be doing commercial photography when I graduate, and advanced photo...I'm suppose to take 4 of these but they don't teach us anything new. Yeah it's a good chance to build up my portfolio, but I want to learn more! I want to learn more darkroom techniques or something! It's frustrating. And we are STILL making proof prints. What is this, the 8th week of class or so and we still haven't started our final prints. So that means I'm going to have like 6 weeks to do 20 11x14 prings...I'm going to want to scream!!! And it kills me to know I have 2 more years left before I graduate...I want out now!!!
And I still feel like I'm being ignored by my friend. I've barely talked to her at all this semester and when I do see her it's for like 5 minutes and then she goes off with her boyfriend. I could have had the opportunity to hang out with her last friday b/c I only have one class and I was finished, we talked for like 15 minutes and then she decided to go have lunch with her boyfriend. She didn't ask me to come along so I went home. And now when I do see her, I feel like she's ignoring me. She barely talks to me and I don't know. It makes me sad, but I'm starting to feel a little pissed off. I'm tired of this. I try calling her and leaving a message, she doesn't call me back. I send her messages on AIM or will send her a text message, she doesn't write back. What the heck has happened? I know that she's falling in love and wants to be with him, but was our friendship so unimportant that she doesn't want to hang out with me anymore? Or even bother calling me back? Meh. I'm tired of it. I feel lonley, I miss my best friend. We always hung out and talked all the time, and now it's like I'm just not that important to her anymore.
So yeah, I haven't been in the best of moods lately. Didn't help that my photoshoot did not go well this afternoon, I hate my picture *sigh* Can it please be spring break yet? I wish my scroll would get here, I bet that would cheer me up! At least I know this is actually coming and I'll actually get it in a fair amount of time, I got an email from the person last week that said it was shipped out and should be here in a few weeks (since it's coming from Japan that's fine).
So yeah, hopefully my little rain cloud will lift and all will be right again!
And I still feel like I'm being ignored by my friend. I've barely talked to her at all this semester and when I do see her it's for like 5 minutes and then she goes off with her boyfriend. I could have had the opportunity to hang out with her last friday b/c I only have one class and I was finished, we talked for like 15 minutes and then she decided to go have lunch with her boyfriend. She didn't ask me to come along so I went home. And now when I do see her, I feel like she's ignoring me. She barely talks to me and I don't know. It makes me sad, but I'm starting to feel a little pissed off. I'm tired of this. I try calling her and leaving a message, she doesn't call me back. I send her messages on AIM or will send her a text message, she doesn't write back. What the heck has happened? I know that she's falling in love and wants to be with him, but was our friendship so unimportant that she doesn't want to hang out with me anymore? Or even bother calling me back? Meh. I'm tired of it. I feel lonley, I miss my best friend. We always hung out and talked all the time, and now it's like I'm just not that important to her anymore.
So yeah, I haven't been in the best of moods lately. Didn't help that my photoshoot did not go well this afternoon, I hate my picture *sigh* Can it please be spring break yet? I wish my scroll would get here, I bet that would cheer me up! At least I know this is actually coming and I'll actually get it in a fair amount of time, I got an email from the person last week that said it was shipped out and should be here in a few weeks (since it's coming from Japan that's fine).
So yeah, hopefully my little rain cloud will lift and all will be right again!