forget it
No....I don't know what I want....am I wrong for that? maybe. is htere something wrong with the big picture of my life? good chance of that. Do I wish everyone would leave me alone? yes and no....cuz I know if everyone did I'd be pissed about htat too. I hung up on my friends last night and turned off my phone. I though about calling but decided I didn't want to because being on the phone only makes me realize that I have nothing to talk about because I haven't done anything in the last month. Do I wasnt something different? something new? yes. Do I want my life to be the way it used to be? yes. Do I have a distrust and a disdain for the world I live in? yes. can I find beauty in simple things? yes. I wisha I was born about 50 years ago....maybe more...maybe a hundred...but wishing doesn't mean shit. so no, I recant my wish because there's no point in it. I wish the government would back the fuck up and stay out of everyone's business....same as police forces...I think drugs should be legal, and the only reason there's a problem is because people make them a problem. Before anykind of prohibition you never heard of problems...and the only reason people think weed is bad is because of bold-faced lies and propaganda put out by the government 50 year s ago...I'm clean now...but I don'tthink i should be, but I choose to be for the moment because I'm so caught up in society's view. Fuck society....bunch of closed-minded robots....OH NO...I Hope noone reasds this....I might be called a terrorist.SUPRISE SUPRISE!!!! YOU CAN NOT FIGHT TERRORISM!!!!!!! anybody can strap a fucking bomb to their chest....especiallyu if they're white. it's pretty fucking simple...they've won and only because we've let them. it's never going to stop....shit I could have killed thousands of people at jaxbeach on the 4th of july with 1 bomb if I wanted to....it was suck a cluster fuck out there and so dense with people it was almost too easy....but killing people isn't my perogative? you know why? cuz I don't really give a rat's ass about people...don't bother me and I won't bother you. Fuck with me and I'll make you wish you never knew I existed. I'm over this country and it's bullshit....I can't wait until America is no longer a superpower. We'll fall...you just watch we already have so many countries pissed off at us because we ignore what they have to say. And hwne the shit hits the fan I"m not gonna be here to watch it.becasue I 'm not loyal enough.FUCK BUSH I just shouldn't have voted at all. I'm republican because I believe that 6% is 6% wheather or not you're rich or poor. why the hell do people who've earned a good living and gone through college and sat at desks owe it to me to pull my weight because I don't make as much? My parents pay more in taxes than a lot of peop;le make in a year. Should they have to? no. something near 40% of my dad's income went to taxes while these niggers on welfare sat around and smoked weed and crack.... yes welfare should require drug tests...I'm pro drug use if you want to...but for fuck sake pay you're goddamn bills first...that or just die and stop being a burden on everyone else. same goes for the homeless....let them die....unless they want to change their lives and contribute to society then society owes them nothing. I'm so sick of this fucking country and their democran republicrat bullshit. but hey...at least I can make money here...so I aint leaving. And yeah...I want hot women expensive cars nice watches and big powerful guns....that's what I want. And if you step in my house I want to be able to shoot you without some cop knocking on my door...and if he does...I wanna be able to shoot him too. What's mine is mine and what's you'rs is your's...I don't owe anybody anything...and I expect nothing in return.