when it rains... well you get the idea.
just when things were starting to look up i got a call last night from my cousin abel telling me they found my mom unconscious in her apartment after someone contacted my aunt worried because she hadn't called or showed up to work in two days. my mom was rushed by ambulance to orange coast memorial hospital and when i arrived my worst fears were confirmed. my mother tried to kill herself by taking an overdose of several prescribed medications. i've been spending most of my time at the hospital and i'm having the hardest time sleeping. my mom has had us all fooled into thinking she was doing okay when she clearly wasn't. hopefully she will get the help she needs now and will come to realize what a precious gift life really is. i'm hanging in there but i am having a really hard time accepting the fact that my mother has lost her will to live. this is the same person who used to get angry when she would hear of other people committing suicide and would say things like "that is the most selfish thing someone could do" and "don't they realize how much pain and suffering they are putting their loved ones through?!" as bad as things ever got or seemed to be in my life there are people who love me and i could not and would not put them through what we are going through. my mom is everything to me... my mother... my father(mine passed away when i was a small child)... and one of my best friends. i don't really know what else to say right now... so i guess i shall end it here and attempt to get a little sleep before heading back to the hospital..