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so i finally got some sleep. and apparently the earplugs mom got me work very well. because i slept through my alarm so i could go to my doctors appointment. i really hope they don't make me sit in their dirty waiting room for hours.
i think i might be losing my mind. but i know as soon as i leave this house i should be able to find it. i just can't take care of him any longer. especially when he's so cruel and antagonistic to me everyday despite the fact i cook, clean, shop, and generally deal with him all day long everyday. and that means being bothered every hour on the hour(sometimes more), woken up all hours of the morning repeatedly, and never getting a single moment to myself. and the thing that kills me is half of the time i think he's just taking advantage of the fact he was diagnosed with alzheimers because he pretends to be helpless in order to have me do everything for him. and then i receive comments about how stupid i am, that i don't know anything, and lately he has taken to leaving leaving slim fast coupons at my door again like he did all my childhood. without a heart? that isn't even a start.
ok. i just really needed to vent. i need to be somewhere peaceful where i can at least meditate without any interruptions. i can't meditate in the middle of the night forever...
i can't wait to start school soon. and this time i need to take a full load of classes. no more screwing around...
i think i might be losing my mind. but i know as soon as i leave this house i should be able to find it. i just can't take care of him any longer. especially when he's so cruel and antagonistic to me everyday despite the fact i cook, clean, shop, and generally deal with him all day long everyday. and that means being bothered every hour on the hour(sometimes more), woken up all hours of the morning repeatedly, and never getting a single moment to myself. and the thing that kills me is half of the time i think he's just taking advantage of the fact he was diagnosed with alzheimers because he pretends to be helpless in order to have me do everything for him. and then i receive comments about how stupid i am, that i don't know anything, and lately he has taken to leaving leaving slim fast coupons at my door again like he did all my childhood. without a heart? that isn't even a start.
ok. i just really needed to vent. i need to be somewhere peaceful where i can at least meditate without any interruptions. i can't meditate in the middle of the night forever...
i can't wait to start school soon. and this time i need to take a full load of classes. no more screwing around...