i want to live and i want to love...

[dawn_michele]

work is fun but at the same time rather exhausting. i've already lost 5 pounds in a week and a few days. i never thought i could lift 50lbs at all let alone repeatedly! i've worked the last 5 days in a row and now i have three days off in a row. excellent! i love a job where the managers have water fights with the employees... and you can never tell when anyone is being serious because everyone is sarcastic... and even when your closing duties are to do a huge list of things that could never get done in 45 minutes your manager tells you to take off at 10pm(because that's when you're supposed to be off) and when you tell him you didn't get to finish everything he laughs and says "don't worry about it" and of course you being the new employee you tell him you're worried someone might get upset that everything wasn't finished and he laughs and says "i'll kick their ass." and one of your managers uses the enormous plastic wrap for wrapping the pallets to wrap one of your fellow employees cars and does such a great job that even with your cutter you struggle to remove it. and i get to hear morrissey and/or the smiths at least 3 times a day. along with the lightning seeds, echo & the bunnymen, and XTC. and i lost my composure when gang of four "i love a man in a uniform" came on today. and i stumped my manager when i asked who it was. he tries to do that to me constantly...

and tomorrow i'll be at disneyland with derek! finally putting my pass to good use.

i want to go to the huntington gardens this weekend too. take some photos.

someone is also painting a picture of me. i feel a bit strange but at the same time very warmed by the idea of seeing myself through his eyes. i tire of seeing myself through my own.

this has become more of a "what am i doing lately" moreso than what i'm thinking... and that's just fine for tonight.