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fuck.
I wish I had more common sense and sense of direction. Im such an idiot sometimes. Steve gave me directions to his show tonight that was last minute....and i wanted to go so bad b/c i always have to fucking close when he has shows in or near marietta. but directions that seemed so simple i somehow manage to fuck them up.
I think i have some sort of nervous condition when i drive in a new place....b/c im always so jumpy when im looking for somewhere i have never been....o well.
guess now that im home i can stop complaining. he said he would call me when it was over if i couldnt make it...which i doubt he will...b/c hes one of those ppl that always forgets to call. why am i friends w/ those kind of ppl?
and today i just felt so humbled when i was at the pool...i heard the fish on the pool radio and i just felt so convicted...I really need to go to church...but i just started thinking about how great life is even though i dont always get what i want and i complain all the time...i am really lucky in so many ways. but now im just so mad...b/c i looked forwards to something tonight and it didnt happen....story of my life.
corse not that it means anything but i called eric to see what he was doing on the way home and chris picked up....hmm. i wont jump to conclusions on why he answered eric's phone but we talked for a little bit...and i dont care if its about nothing. i just cant bring myself to call him...i mean i have...but whatever...i wont really get into it...its not worth it.
well i was supposed to go to wild bills last night but it didnt happen...damn. BUT i did get to hang out w/ chris..well in a group...but he was there. we all watxhed hostage at joesphs. it was a good movie.
well i guess ill go lay down maybe steve will call back..maybe eric will..who knows.
I wish I had more common sense and sense of direction. Im such an idiot sometimes. Steve gave me directions to his show tonight that was last minute....and i wanted to go so bad b/c i always have to fucking close when he has shows in or near marietta. but directions that seemed so simple i somehow manage to fuck them up.
I think i have some sort of nervous condition when i drive in a new place....b/c im always so jumpy when im looking for somewhere i have never been....o well.
guess now that im home i can stop complaining. he said he would call me when it was over if i couldnt make it...which i doubt he will...b/c hes one of those ppl that always forgets to call. why am i friends w/ those kind of ppl?
and today i just felt so humbled when i was at the pool...i heard the fish on the pool radio and i just felt so convicted...I really need to go to church...but i just started thinking about how great life is even though i dont always get what i want and i complain all the time...i am really lucky in so many ways. but now im just so mad...b/c i looked forwards to something tonight and it didnt happen....story of my life.
corse not that it means anything but i called eric to see what he was doing on the way home and chris picked up....hmm. i wont jump to conclusions on why he answered eric's phone but we talked for a little bit...and i dont care if its about nothing. i just cant bring myself to call him...i mean i have...but whatever...i wont really get into it...its not worth it.
well i was supposed to go to wild bills last night but it didnt happen...damn. BUT i did get to hang out w/ chris..well in a group...but he was there. we all watxhed hostage at joesphs. it was a good movie.
well i guess ill go lay down maybe steve will call back..maybe eric will..who knows.