Jan 01, 2009 17:55
How 2009 is already a piece of shit. I don't know how I'm supposed to appear 'happy' when I'm not. I am really looking forward to it(09)and would really not like to be depressed at all but in all reality it's very hard for me to avoid it. When it comes down to it I really cant be pissed about all and most of my shit being lost or stolen..(No joke, Iphone, job, school, unemployment, my bag with most of my shit, including the ipod my father bought me even though i told him not too) Its just really frustrating for something like that to happen almost once a week. Ill lift my head in front of people but when it comes down to it, I really don't want too.
I need a very long walk.
and I need to sit by a fire in the middle of nowhere and stare at the stars until my smile is turned to sleep.