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aw its thurday now...very recently it was 4/20 and i took advantage of that. im still kind of high.
yeah so its weird. yesterday, i was thinking and i figured out something that took me over 2 years to finally understand. i even understood it and agreed it made sense when i was sober. i always complained and whined and talk about how hurt i had gotten...and now i realize i definately deserved it. for a long time now i was always wondering what i had done wrong, an it bothered me i didnt know what it was...and now i know. i wonder how long it will take me to figure out what i did wrong this time. probably everything. whatever. speaking of recent news...yeah, talk about too much information.
also, i definately failed a spanish test today. like, i did sooooo bad. and no, i was not fucked up for it or anything.
for awhile i was seriously thinking of completely changing my plans and just sticking around dc for the summer. the things that stopped me were the fact that i would have to find a place to stay, it would be more expensive and i think it would be boring. i would prob just sit around all day whenever i wasnt working. i dont know if stacie is staying in dc, otherwise i would hang out with her lol...and i think andy is staying, he'd probably have other things to do, and i would feel weird calling khanh. okay, i think im going into way too much detail here.
yeah so its weird. yesterday, i was thinking and i figured out something that took me over 2 years to finally understand. i even understood it and agreed it made sense when i was sober. i always complained and whined and talk about how hurt i had gotten...and now i realize i definately deserved it. for a long time now i was always wondering what i had done wrong, an it bothered me i didnt know what it was...and now i know. i wonder how long it will take me to figure out what i did wrong this time. probably everything. whatever. speaking of recent news...yeah, talk about too much information.
also, i definately failed a spanish test today. like, i did sooooo bad. and no, i was not fucked up for it or anything.
for awhile i was seriously thinking of completely changing my plans and just sticking around dc for the summer. the things that stopped me were the fact that i would have to find a place to stay, it would be more expensive and i think it would be boring. i would prob just sit around all day whenever i wasnt working. i dont know if stacie is staying in dc, otherwise i would hang out with her lol...and i think andy is staying, he'd probably have other things to do, and i would feel weird calling khanh. okay, i think im going into way too much detail here.