Lost and Found- big and small
Ok I might be getting a cold or intense sinus infection-yuck.
I have been playing lost and found so much lately. I keep losing things in my little monster containment unit/container/box. I usually manage to find them, but oh the stress of looking takes up so much energy.
Funny when I started thinking about this problem a second ago I started to think about the bigger picture of lost and found. Recently I felt that I lost love, but i ended up finding more love than i thought i could have. Even the 'lost' love isn't really gone, it had transformed into a more appropriate form.
I always wanted that Love to be happy and safe, i naively thought it would be 'with' me, but watching her be happy with someone else doesn't hurt as much as it did when I felt i was losing her and was trying so hard to hold her to me. I'm happy to see her happy. And the love I have now I couldn't have had when I was with her. And the Loves I have now sustain me in many good ways, i hope they last in one form or another.
My life is maybe more complicated or maybe less now out on my own again, hard to tell. I'm a bit scared about flying without a net, but it is exciting.
I just hope I can set up my new box (I'm moving to a box above my box and will have a little porch and easier access to storage) in a way where I stop losing things, only to find them again. It really slows me down sometimes.
But sometimes lost and found isn't all bad. I am happy with the Love I have found.
Glad I managed to find my caulk gun and head lamp too. Now I can fill in some of the gaps in my new box and make it super cozy. But 1st sleep so I can feel rested and well tomorrow.
I have been playing lost and found so much lately. I keep losing things in my little monster containment unit/container/box. I usually manage to find them, but oh the stress of looking takes up so much energy.
Funny when I started thinking about this problem a second ago I started to think about the bigger picture of lost and found. Recently I felt that I lost love, but i ended up finding more love than i thought i could have. Even the 'lost' love isn't really gone, it had transformed into a more appropriate form.
I always wanted that Love to be happy and safe, i naively thought it would be 'with' me, but watching her be happy with someone else doesn't hurt as much as it did when I felt i was losing her and was trying so hard to hold her to me. I'm happy to see her happy. And the love I have now I couldn't have had when I was with her. And the Loves I have now sustain me in many good ways, i hope they last in one form or another.
My life is maybe more complicated or maybe less now out on my own again, hard to tell. I'm a bit scared about flying without a net, but it is exciting.
I just hope I can set up my new box (I'm moving to a box above my box and will have a little porch and easier access to storage) in a way where I stop losing things, only to find them again. It really slows me down sometimes.
But sometimes lost and found isn't all bad. I am happy with the Love I have found.
Glad I managed to find my caulk gun and head lamp too. Now I can fill in some of the gaps in my new box and make it super cozy. But 1st sleep so I can feel rested and well tomorrow.