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so i got a call last night from this girl that is in love with someone who doesn't want her. gee doesn't this sound too familiar. lol. it made me realize how hard it was when i left alonzo and how stupid i was for ever even being with him. the shit that i went through for that ass. and the ironic thing is that i still love him and think about him. what is this hold that he has on my heart? i want out. i want to run and never come back. i want to go against my better judgement and leave everything that i know...but i can't. im stuck and there is no way i am getting out of it. just death. and that isn't an option anymore. of only life were easier. im just too depressed to type. too pissed off to care. and too lonley to feel hope.