about to crack
ok so this asshole is seriously pissing me off and i am not going to take it lying down anymore. he just doesn't get it and just thinks that i am a fucking idiot. im tired of being his fucking scape goat for shit that he says i should have done like chased him down the street with the deposite or how i have my papers organized at my desk. stupid fucking shit that has no bearing on my work performance. he keeps bringing up the idiot who was here a long time ago and thats fucking fine with me. he wants her then he should get her back. i know that he sure as hell doesn't pay me enough to put up with his shit. its not worth the 50 cent raise that he just gave me. im now looking for employment elsewhere so i can leave this dump and i hope with the experience that i have gained from here well grant me a better paying job else where with less head aches. i seriously want to fucking beat him to a bloody pulp right now thats how pissed off i am.
so patricks bday is coming up in about 2 weeks. the number 3. big 3. i can't believe that it has been that long already. i really can't. he has gotten so big!!! he talks and has manners and counts and knows things like angles and shapes. the one thing he can't seem to grasp is the toilet concept!!! the most important!!! well he started day care again today with jake and i hated leaving him there. i really did. now instead of getting up at 7 or 7:20 i have to get up at like 6:15 or 6:30 to get ready, get them ready and drop them off and be here by 8. talk about no sleep!!
im so stressed out right now. i mean between patricks party, the bills, cleaning, putting up with this moron here at work, and finding a new job, while dealing with my moms shit.... i seriously dont know how much i can take before i just fucking expload!!! yeah my mom has been helping her god mother lately. sleeping over there, and taking care of her which is fine. she hands my brother all the money he wants, pays my sisters bills, and when it comes to the one thing that i need she can't do it. all i need is for raul to get to work at 3 or 4. whatever time it is that he goes in. and she can't find time just to pick him up and take him. seriously!!! its not alot. she would prefer him to get up at 6:15 or 6:30 to go with me to drop the kids and take the car home so he can get to work after having gotten home at 12 or 1 am. yeah like that'll happen!!! i guess it shouldn't surprize me any. she's always been like that. so now im having to emplor my brother to take him or maybe even ask my sister. i guess its all coming from the same place since my mom pays for them. but i know that raul doesn't really feel comfortable with them.
SHOOT ME NOW PLEASE!!!
so patricks bday is coming up in about 2 weeks. the number 3. big 3. i can't believe that it has been that long already. i really can't. he has gotten so big!!! he talks and has manners and counts and knows things like angles and shapes. the one thing he can't seem to grasp is the toilet concept!!! the most important!!! well he started day care again today with jake and i hated leaving him there. i really did. now instead of getting up at 7 or 7:20 i have to get up at like 6:15 or 6:30 to get ready, get them ready and drop them off and be here by 8. talk about no sleep!!
im so stressed out right now. i mean between patricks party, the bills, cleaning, putting up with this moron here at work, and finding a new job, while dealing with my moms shit.... i seriously dont know how much i can take before i just fucking expload!!! yeah my mom has been helping her god mother lately. sleeping over there, and taking care of her which is fine. she hands my brother all the money he wants, pays my sisters bills, and when it comes to the one thing that i need she can't do it. all i need is for raul to get to work at 3 or 4. whatever time it is that he goes in. and she can't find time just to pick him up and take him. seriously!!! its not alot. she would prefer him to get up at 6:15 or 6:30 to go with me to drop the kids and take the car home so he can get to work after having gotten home at 12 or 1 am. yeah like that'll happen!!! i guess it shouldn't surprize me any. she's always been like that. so now im having to emplor my brother to take him or maybe even ask my sister. i guess its all coming from the same place since my mom pays for them. but i know that raul doesn't really feel comfortable with them.
SHOOT ME NOW PLEASE!!!