Bad Choices
A conversation took place.
Rarely do I ever talk about any emotional affairs that I might be having in my glimmer of time in this spec of life of mine,But Yesterday I felt like it was easy and fine to despense it. I don't have that eerie feeling like I'm naked and exposed anymore and i've adjusted to this attitude as if what is their to lose with being sincere and honest?
Eating oysters in June is almost like playing roulette with sallmonilla, but i enjoy the risk and I know there are no "R's n June meaning oysters are out os season and its the reason i season mine with tabassco anyways.....Oh yeah its a lie about the aphrodisiac they contain..
So I came to the conclusion and voiced it out that i make very stupid bad decisions when it comes to choosing between women.
I have noticed an gathered this through time. I always seek the bad ones, the fallen ones, the pain in the ass ones....and maybe its the whole chase and challenge thing...
but i think its reached a point to where.........I'm finished with games....
I can have a myriad of girls pursuing me and I always without fail choose the impossible and all the rest scatter and ....................im back to ground zero again....
Ahhh well stupid childish girl problems.....
Its late June, .....i have 3 more months and then its this art show.....
im not afraid anymore
and im not really worried anymore
i just feel like
..........................like just here in my time and wondering what tomorrow will bring wihtout expecting much just living in some sort of harmonic tone a tone hopefully thats in tune with life....
So much has happened since this last entry how does one attempt to sum it all up?
mmmm...
How am i to react to my friends girlfriend waltzing through the door offering to give me a blow job outloud infront of him?
thats something to remember from this week.
How am i to feel about being gawked at by these cougars at the bar....as if i would ever ....no i shouldnt say that.....im sure they were beutiful at one time in their youth....
i sometimes feel my soul grows and my energy that incases it heightens when i turn away such temptations.....
Maybe i have heavy levys under neath these eyes of mine that hold back the floods of this smiling mask i masquerade about with me through the times.......
maybe i do....
i just need one.......but i cant seem to find one
i dont wanna be a skank dog.......
but it seems life just throwns me in that position an i cease to commit to it....
ahhhhhh
well
i think God is more orgasmic this world need to hurry up already i want my wings
Rarely do I ever talk about any emotional affairs that I might be having in my glimmer of time in this spec of life of mine,But Yesterday I felt like it was easy and fine to despense it. I don't have that eerie feeling like I'm naked and exposed anymore and i've adjusted to this attitude as if what is their to lose with being sincere and honest?
Eating oysters in June is almost like playing roulette with sallmonilla, but i enjoy the risk and I know there are no "R's n June meaning oysters are out os season and its the reason i season mine with tabassco anyways.....Oh yeah its a lie about the aphrodisiac they contain..
So I came to the conclusion and voiced it out that i make very stupid bad decisions when it comes to choosing between women.
I have noticed an gathered this through time. I always seek the bad ones, the fallen ones, the pain in the ass ones....and maybe its the whole chase and challenge thing...
but i think its reached a point to where.........I'm finished with games....
I can have a myriad of girls pursuing me and I always without fail choose the impossible and all the rest scatter and ....................im back to ground zero again....
Ahhh well stupid childish girl problems.....
Its late June, .....i have 3 more months and then its this art show.....
im not afraid anymore
and im not really worried anymore
i just feel like
..........................like just here in my time and wondering what tomorrow will bring wihtout expecting much just living in some sort of harmonic tone a tone hopefully thats in tune with life....
So much has happened since this last entry how does one attempt to sum it all up?
mmmm...
How am i to react to my friends girlfriend waltzing through the door offering to give me a blow job outloud infront of him?
thats something to remember from this week.
How am i to feel about being gawked at by these cougars at the bar....as if i would ever ....no i shouldnt say that.....im sure they were beutiful at one time in their youth....
i sometimes feel my soul grows and my energy that incases it heightens when i turn away such temptations.....
Maybe i have heavy levys under neath these eyes of mine that hold back the floods of this smiling mask i masquerade about with me through the times.......
maybe i do....
i just need one.......but i cant seem to find one
i dont wanna be a skank dog.......
but it seems life just throwns me in that position an i cease to commit to it....
ahhhhhh
well
i think God is more orgasmic this world need to hurry up already i want my wings