missing the missed

[davidlee_2006]

ok well not much going on today
worked
watched gillmore girls
billy i out drinking  so i dont think ill see him tonight
and im here thinking
about what u may ask
about y i cant miss
last night during an argument with billy he mentioned how i cant miss people 
so i cant understand where hes coming from
it makes me sad that im this way
i want to miss people
how unhuman does a person have to be to not miss some one????
what do i have to do to miss?
there might be nothing i can do to miss
and for the rest of my life people will be able to hold it against me
maybe im doomed to be this way forever
no one can truly care for me because they will feel that i dont care for them
cause i feel that i dont miss them
i have lost so many attachments maybe i stopped letting myself, or atleast a part of myself,
get attached to people
in preperation of the day they leave 
even if that day never comes
well im off to bury my thoughts in video games
i work at 10 in the morning
and i see joy on thursday
it will be fun beacause we both have guitars

HOPE ALL IS WELL
:D~avid
PS-i think im going to stop doing PSs
PSS-i think