well its been about a month
since the last time i posted so this may be long shits been alright except last night i got fuckin wasted and said some shit i shouldnt have to someone and now have to do the one thing i hate more than anything say sorry after talking to cristina on the way home i realized something that i really think there is something wrong with me i mean i thought about it and every relationship ive been in has been a bullshit one they dont last or i cheat even like the one relationship i would call serious and i thought i might be in love i fucked up it just seems as though its always me even friendships seem to diminish simply cause im an asswhole i dunno but i need to repair my self and really figure out what is wrong well i guess thats all now i have to call and apologize so peace out fuckers