stability
I realise now that what I want is far off due to my own design. My tax problems have grown more than I expected them to do and my phone cost more than I should have paid for it. Bills are worse than I expected they would be, but false hope has gotten me far. Also, I think the three days of military duty will be some much needed work for me. I will just be better if they bet my paycheck correct this time. I think I will begin looking into meditation more physical conditioning to incorporate stronger strength in willpower and a to be ready for some of te chaos headed in my future. Some of my close friends are going to Iraq next month, and I will miss them. The idea of going to Iraq as an independant contractor interests me at this point based on everything that is going on in my life and the news. However that, I also like my job and feel that more planning needs to be done before decisions of that nature are made. I truly think the experience in Iraq has brought me more open to showing how I feel about things that matter to me, and more serious about showing what does not matter to me. Stability is a good thing and like chaos a very relative thing.