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[davidelove]

I know I shouldn't be sad, but, damn he was my grandpa. He was everything to me. How can't I be sad about that? Almost five years have past and sometimes I feel so sad and I really miss him. I don't know why I keep being this sad, everybody tells me that I should be happy because he is in a better place, and he is all right there, but, you know what? Is not as easy as it looks like. It not easy to be happy while you're thinking about someone who was like a second father to you. It's not fair! I want him back. I really do. I just... feel so lonely sometimes. Going into my gradma's house and not seeing him just breaks my heart.
Today was like a depressive day to me. All day thinking about it, crying in the shower so nobody could listen. I know I should be kinda happy because I know he is in a better place, but I just really need him now.

I love, I miss you.
Melisa.