ok update
ok so I didn't know where to write all this when it hit me, oh yeah I have a lj so that's cool, I only wanted to write a short little note, but I might as well start with the middle of Dec.
Well after my final, definitely upset in a lot of ways, 1. no As 2. lowered my GPA below 3 but this semester I am retaking a class so I hope I can get it back up to what it was. I think that's it from school.
Christmas is just too much. Ok so I bought gifts for everyone who I really wanted. I actually asked a lot of other people if they wanted a gift, but a no or no response led me to buy for my family and like 5 other people. For some reason, I went to the mall like 6-7 times with either my sister or a good friend, Matt. Unfortunately for my wallet, this cool store was closing named virgin. I think I ended up buying like 5 things just for myself, not to mention game for Shane, game for Matt, and some old manga for Amy (church friend), but not for Christmas, but her birthday which is 2 days before Valentine's day, which I have no clue why I remember that since I have a terrible memory. Anyways, this was also my first trip to Spenser's. Maybe a bit too exotic for me, BUT I did end up buying like 3-4 things from there. Did I say exotic I meant erotic. I got to eat at the rain forest cafe at mills which I have never eaten at, side note their nachos are awesome. They also have a Garcia's which I like but I haven't been able to go in some time.
Trying this up, Christmas eve, we look at lights, it was kinda short since we went to Shane's house. Here we watched everyone open presents cool right, WRONG, everyone got mad at us because we wouldn't open presents til 12. So we made everyone stay up til we finished opening presents. BTW this other girl had a really dumb tradition, it is that she has to go to sleep and wake up to open presents, even if it is already Christmas. Ok, so come home, open presents from family ie way better than other presents. Unfortunately, lloyd and I were trying to buy a big screen, unfortunately, Matt could not get his employ discount from circuit city (which even with discounted prices, still sucked) but that could be a good thing.
See I used the money I would have bought the big screen for tuition added with a lot of money from the bank. This would be a good time to say that I am dead broke. I have wanted to quit my job for some time now, but time in and again, life gets in the way.
3 good reasons I can't quit my job: 1. Vegas-if I don't have money for Vegas, I am screwed. I mean there are still stuff can do for free, but in Vegas, to have a good time, you have to have money. 2. School, I just paid tuition, and bought my books, unfortunately, I don't have enough money to pay for my books, so I used my credit card. 3 Car had to get fixed, I haven't had a good running car for a very long time, first was the tires, next it was the car not starting, then it was some random tube I broke. Now I owe my mom money===> money money money *sigh* ie the reason I can't quit.
Flip side:
5 or more reasons to quit. 1. Managers are out to get me. Now, I don't think this is paranoia, when it is confirmed. I was the assistant supervisor on night crew til suddenly, I wasn't. No reason why. I was still in charge while the supervisor was not there, but I was not allowed to order (one of my friends in management told me why and it was that Micheal, a manager, was complaining about me, and I am like WHEN, he has not told me anything. 2 New management. These new managers are changing the store. Because of this I have been written up 3 times in the last month! 3 times!!! I know they are new and inexperienced, but still, that's like giving a baby a power to kill people, do you think the baby will be fair. 3. I got one of the worst reviews in my life. It was completely heart breaking. Like that all my hard work never mattered. At first this made me want to prove myself, but then I realized two major things most of the stuff that I have ever done wrong was resent. Meaning what I did now wouldn't even be remembered, like how I worked so hard to become assistant supervisor in the first place, no but that's nothing <== note that I got my review the third time I was written up. 4. I screws up my sleep cycle like a baby on crack. I also do most of my hw at night so it screws that up too. 5 Friend manager is LEAVING soon, meaning no friends up top. 6. I already am using my vacation days. 7. Vegas, I don't want to work during or close to Vegas. 8. I hate my job. and that's the real and most reason why I want to quit, because believe it or not, I am good at my job. Not only am I good, I am one of the best, but it makes me unhappy now. ugh its just a mess.
Last few notes:
Tuition payed it full, go me. And Facebook I decided to deleat friends who don't reply back to me, don't worry, I will give them a month or so to respond (except those who i talk to on a regular base), but I think this is a way of getting ride of those who don't care about me so I wont care about them.) I know this sounds girly to me, but you know what, I hate txt or messaging my friends, and never getting a response back. In fact, it kills me and eats away at my soul. But now I have been procrastinating it, because it is 200 friends and its hard to send personal messages to all of them then keep responding, but I will, I just wanted to write a bit to get my holiday off my back.
PS: I did see my cousin last thanksgiving, we talked a little. I called her bf gay and she got mad lol, but it was fun. I didn't see her Christmas at uncle ally's house (which I forgot to put in) but it was fitting since I lost her present.
Well after my final, definitely upset in a lot of ways, 1. no As 2. lowered my GPA below 3 but this semester I am retaking a class so I hope I can get it back up to what it was. I think that's it from school.
Christmas is just too much. Ok so I bought gifts for everyone who I really wanted. I actually asked a lot of other people if they wanted a gift, but a no or no response led me to buy for my family and like 5 other people. For some reason, I went to the mall like 6-7 times with either my sister or a good friend, Matt. Unfortunately for my wallet, this cool store was closing named virgin. I think I ended up buying like 5 things just for myself, not to mention game for Shane, game for Matt, and some old manga for Amy (church friend), but not for Christmas, but her birthday which is 2 days before Valentine's day, which I have no clue why I remember that since I have a terrible memory. Anyways, this was also my first trip to Spenser's. Maybe a bit too exotic for me, BUT I did end up buying like 3-4 things from there. Did I say exotic I meant erotic. I got to eat at the rain forest cafe at mills which I have never eaten at, side note their nachos are awesome. They also have a Garcia's which I like but I haven't been able to go in some time.
Trying this up, Christmas eve, we look at lights, it was kinda short since we went to Shane's house. Here we watched everyone open presents cool right, WRONG, everyone got mad at us because we wouldn't open presents til 12. So we made everyone stay up til we finished opening presents. BTW this other girl had a really dumb tradition, it is that she has to go to sleep and wake up to open presents, even if it is already Christmas. Ok, so come home, open presents from family ie way better than other presents. Unfortunately, lloyd and I were trying to buy a big screen, unfortunately, Matt could not get his employ discount from circuit city (which even with discounted prices, still sucked) but that could be a good thing.
See I used the money I would have bought the big screen for tuition added with a lot of money from the bank. This would be a good time to say that I am dead broke. I have wanted to quit my job for some time now, but time in and again, life gets in the way.
3 good reasons I can't quit my job: 1. Vegas-if I don't have money for Vegas, I am screwed. I mean there are still stuff can do for free, but in Vegas, to have a good time, you have to have money. 2. School, I just paid tuition, and bought my books, unfortunately, I don't have enough money to pay for my books, so I used my credit card. 3 Car had to get fixed, I haven't had a good running car for a very long time, first was the tires, next it was the car not starting, then it was some random tube I broke. Now I owe my mom money===> money money money *sigh* ie the reason I can't quit.
Flip side:
5 or more reasons to quit. 1. Managers are out to get me. Now, I don't think this is paranoia, when it is confirmed. I was the assistant supervisor on night crew til suddenly, I wasn't. No reason why. I was still in charge while the supervisor was not there, but I was not allowed to order (one of my friends in management told me why and it was that Micheal, a manager, was complaining about me, and I am like WHEN, he has not told me anything. 2 New management. These new managers are changing the store. Because of this I have been written up 3 times in the last month! 3 times!!! I know they are new and inexperienced, but still, that's like giving a baby a power to kill people, do you think the baby will be fair. 3. I got one of the worst reviews in my life. It was completely heart breaking. Like that all my hard work never mattered. At first this made me want to prove myself, but then I realized two major things most of the stuff that I have ever done wrong was resent. Meaning what I did now wouldn't even be remembered, like how I worked so hard to become assistant supervisor in the first place, no but that's nothing <== note that I got my review the third time I was written up. 4. I screws up my sleep cycle like a baby on crack. I also do most of my hw at night so it screws that up too. 5 Friend manager is LEAVING soon, meaning no friends up top. 6. I already am using my vacation days. 7. Vegas, I don't want to work during or close to Vegas. 8. I hate my job. and that's the real and most reason why I want to quit, because believe it or not, I am good at my job. Not only am I good, I am one of the best, but it makes me unhappy now. ugh its just a mess.
Last few notes:
Tuition payed it full, go me. And Facebook I decided to deleat friends who don't reply back to me, don't worry, I will give them a month or so to respond (except those who i talk to on a regular base), but I think this is a way of getting ride of those who don't care about me so I wont care about them.) I know this sounds girly to me, but you know what, I hate txt or messaging my friends, and never getting a response back. In fact, it kills me and eats away at my soul. But now I have been procrastinating it, because it is 200 friends and its hard to send personal messages to all of them then keep responding, but I will, I just wanted to write a bit to get my holiday off my back.
PS: I did see my cousin last thanksgiving, we talked a little. I called her bf gay and she got mad lol, but it was fun. I didn't see her Christmas at uncle ally's house (which I forgot to put in) but it was fitting since I lost her present.