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Happy Birthday....I miss you. very much. i hope i'll see you again one day. i love you. i just hate that i dont understand. i wish i could. but it doesnt make sense. its not right, none of it is. its all wrong! and i hate it, i hate it so much. i hate being here without you, i hate mom being here without you. i hate that ur gonna miss the wedding u wanted so much. i hate that i fear that McKenna might forget you, even though i dont think she could forget her Pepaw. god she loved you so much. its not fair to her. its not fair to the grandchildren i plan on having some day. now, i kno someone is out there thinking. "well life's just not fair." i know that. which is why sometimes i just hate living. this is one of those times. this is definitely one of those times