"This indecision's buggin' me..."
Am I not to old for this shit?!
I feel like I'm going through my teen years all over again, and yeahyeahyeah, I know I'm not that much removed from them, but for the past four years or so, I really thought I was beyond some of the horsemanure of teen angst and indecision and goth-like musings.
BUT NOOOOOOO...
I've never really felt as alone as I have recently, I always had Lynn there to call up on the phone to reassure me on anything. I've been wandering around, head held high, all cocksure and "YEAH THE SINGLE LIFE ROCKS MY ASS" but last night, for a multitude of reasons, brought reality down like a bag full of fat babies. Dating is a wonderful thing. Having someone who really cares about you, wants to do things with just you, and shares many of your interests. The two of you always have some private secret between the two of you that no one else can ever get. I tried to force my way into one of these recently, to disasterous results.
So, I'm a bit down. Single life isn't all its cracked up to be emotionally or physically. Being with someone is much harder than "I WANNA BE WITH *THAT* ONE". And, unfortunately, its a huge aspect of (my) life. Maybe it only weighs so heavily on my mind right now for obvious reasons, but I'm finding it hard to see the big picture when there's no one to see it with.
Like Freddie Mercury I wish I could find somebody to love...
But like Saddam from South Park, I need to relax, guy.
Will do Saddam.
I feel like I'm going through my teen years all over again, and yeahyeahyeah, I know I'm not that much removed from them, but for the past four years or so, I really thought I was beyond some of the horsemanure of teen angst and indecision and goth-like musings.
BUT NOOOOOOO...
I've never really felt as alone as I have recently, I always had Lynn there to call up on the phone to reassure me on anything. I've been wandering around, head held high, all cocksure and "YEAH THE SINGLE LIFE ROCKS MY ASS" but last night, for a multitude of reasons, brought reality down like a bag full of fat babies. Dating is a wonderful thing. Having someone who really cares about you, wants to do things with just you, and shares many of your interests. The two of you always have some private secret between the two of you that no one else can ever get. I tried to force my way into one of these recently, to disasterous results.
So, I'm a bit down. Single life isn't all its cracked up to be emotionally or physically. Being with someone is much harder than "I WANNA BE WITH *THAT* ONE". And, unfortunately, its a huge aspect of (my) life. Maybe it only weighs so heavily on my mind right now for obvious reasons, but I'm finding it hard to see the big picture when there's no one to see it with.
Like Freddie Mercury I wish I could find somebody to love...
But like Saddam from South Park, I need to relax, guy.
Will do Saddam.