to elaborate on my last post
I've been single for almost a year and a half now. THat sucks, but at the same time it's an opportunity to get some things done. Unfortunately i'm the type of person who slacks off without someone there to really motivate me, which is usually my significant other. My roomate is trying, but he's really just coming off as annoying,,, Thanks anyway B___.
The person i'd really like to be in a relationship with lives too far away, and i'm not really up for jumping into another long distance. Not to mention i think she may be a little fed up with me,,, four years is a long time. If i could get and an apt in BR and a job with AEMS tomorrow, i'd take it. but right now, i think i'm gonna be safer working two jobs here for a while and getting a job at a nearby EMS. TOO many other things seem to be overwhelming me as well. Credit, new car, family, stress that I'm putting on myself. I have to keep reminding myself that i have to take babysteps, THat's the only way i ever really achieve anything in life, with baby steps, otherwise i lose everything and fuck it up. Le sigh.
I REALLY wanna be a EMT-P.
I REALLY wanna be in a serious relationship, and start a family, and be REMOTELY financially stable.
These things always seem out of reach.
And , if i don't stay productive, i fall into real bad slumps. SO, i recently started drawing again, and finally dusted off my guitar and got a book to really learn it for good now.
wish me luck
i'm so depressed, and tired lately,
:P
Miss you more than i admit.
PS,
I write this knowing that only two, maybe four, people will read this. I really love you guys, thanks.
The person i'd really like to be in a relationship with lives too far away, and i'm not really up for jumping into another long distance. Not to mention i think she may be a little fed up with me,,, four years is a long time. If i could get and an apt in BR and a job with AEMS tomorrow, i'd take it. but right now, i think i'm gonna be safer working two jobs here for a while and getting a job at a nearby EMS. TOO many other things seem to be overwhelming me as well. Credit, new car, family, stress that I'm putting on myself. I have to keep reminding myself that i have to take babysteps, THat's the only way i ever really achieve anything in life, with baby steps, otherwise i lose everything and fuck it up. Le sigh.
I REALLY wanna be a EMT-P.
I REALLY wanna be in a serious relationship, and start a family, and be REMOTELY financially stable.
These things always seem out of reach.
And , if i don't stay productive, i fall into real bad slumps. SO, i recently started drawing again, and finally dusted off my guitar and got a book to really learn it for good now.
wish me luck
i'm so depressed, and tired lately,
:P
Miss you more than i admit.
PS,
I write this knowing that only two, maybe four, people will read this. I really love you guys, thanks.