A Taste of Fucking Chaos
I can never understand anything. I hate it when good things come around and I fuck it up. Nothing ever goes my way, especially with a little tease.lol. i mean When stuff starts off awesome and then BAM like a slap in the face its all over. And then your left there not knowing a God DAMN THING. Im done with it for a while, i gave it a chance, but it hurts too much.2x in a couple of months is enough for me. YOU give something away and as if its easy they just throw it to the wolves.
Hey Krystle, i just wanted to let u know that its been grand. I had an awesome month, thanks to you. i wouldnt trade it for anything in the world. I could just imagine wat could happen in another three years, u know they say the third times a charm.lol.maybe then well be ready for each other, we tried 3 years ago, now and they just didnt seem to work out.I just hope we could still be friends. all i can say is that i gave it my all to try to make things work. I still have no idea all the things i did to distance you from me. I feel like this has been a reverse relationship where u start off going out being boyfriend and girlfriend and then bamn now ur talking(moving back a step)and then bamn as if nothing had ever happened its all gone. i dont understand wat i could have done soo bad for u to hate me the way u do. and dont say that u dont because thats bull shit. the way u talk to me is like if im a piece of shit, and thats an understatement.i liked it when we first met up again and u talked to me like i was a human being. i just feel that we wouldnt have ended it on such a bad note if wwe would have never gone out, id ont regret it but on the other hand we probably would get along so muych better if that werre the case. i try to be nice but thats not good enough, i say something nice but thats not good enough either. I just dont understand you. i offered u my world and my heart and this is wat happends. its always the same with chicks i guess girls do like it when u treat them like shit. it seems to work on alot of people, cuz thats the deal with my cousin and his girlfriend. right now i pretty much wish i was an asshole\,but that could be debated among the few in the crowd.
****Reminder to everyone that reads this. I gather from my experience in life, that too much of a good thing is never good, in fact, it fucking sucks. when ever u feel that it cant get any better than ur current situation is the fucking time to get the hell out, before everyone or any0one gets hurt. because once u reach that stage..theres no turning back, its like a one way ticket to fucking hell, do not pass go do not collect $200 go strait to fucking hell. i would like to apolgize to all whom may get offended by reading this. If u have a problem with it, tough.Lifes a bitch and it dont get any better, who ever told u that it does is a fucking lier.
****havent u ever noticed, that nothing could ever be perfect. it could seem that way, but no. never perfect. Or it could be perfect on the outside but its like DAMN on the inside. its lik judging a book by its cover...u never kno0w what the fuuck to ecxpect.
im so pissed of right now. besides the fact that i got into a huge fight with everyone in my family, everythings going great. those mother f'ers dont understand me..or i dont understand them. its probably that, cuz im not good at understanding people, or atleast thats what i hear. it sux balls supposedly not understanding wat people are saying and then them talking down to you because down inside they dont even know what the fuck they are saying.
Yesterday was the Tas te of Chaos. That concert was awesome. I moshed so much. I even met Ian, the bassist from New Found Glory. I loved MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. I saw them perform of Jay Leno, but DAMN, its no where near the same. It was crazy. I met like 50 million new people.lol. Most of them know me as "The Guy Who Can Swallow His Tongue!" That was soo funny. The people I remember are Sam, Eddie, Suzy, her 13 year old friend and that Red Head Girl and her brother.lol.
I put on a fake tatoo today. it looks awesome, its of an eagle, but the dezign itself is outrageous. im pretty sure that in acouple of months im going to get it tattoed on my forearm, right where i have the fake one now.
i cant wait till friday. i turn 18, im so excited. im going on a cruise. its called sea escape. its a one day gambling and booze cruise. its going to be so much fun. i also get my car this week. it cant get any better than this, well it can but it wont, cuz that never happens.
david
Hey Krystle, i just wanted to let u know that its been grand. I had an awesome month, thanks to you. i wouldnt trade it for anything in the world. I could just imagine wat could happen in another three years, u know they say the third times a charm.lol.maybe then well be ready for each other, we tried 3 years ago, now and they just didnt seem to work out.I just hope we could still be friends. all i can say is that i gave it my all to try to make things work. I still have no idea all the things i did to distance you from me. I feel like this has been a reverse relationship where u start off going out being boyfriend and girlfriend and then bamn now ur talking(moving back a step)and then bamn as if nothing had ever happened its all gone. i dont understand wat i could have done soo bad for u to hate me the way u do. and dont say that u dont because thats bull shit. the way u talk to me is like if im a piece of shit, and thats an understatement.i liked it when we first met up again and u talked to me like i was a human being. i just feel that we wouldnt have ended it on such a bad note if wwe would have never gone out, id ont regret it but on the other hand we probably would get along so muych better if that werre the case. i try to be nice but thats not good enough, i say something nice but thats not good enough either. I just dont understand you. i offered u my world and my heart and this is wat happends. its always the same with chicks i guess girls do like it when u treat them like shit. it seems to work on alot of people, cuz thats the deal with my cousin and his girlfriend. right now i pretty much wish i was an asshole\,but that could be debated among the few in the crowd.
****Reminder to everyone that reads this. I gather from my experience in life, that too much of a good thing is never good, in fact, it fucking sucks. when ever u feel that it cant get any better than ur current situation is the fucking time to get the hell out, before everyone or any0one gets hurt. because once u reach that stage..theres no turning back, its like a one way ticket to fucking hell, do not pass go do not collect $200 go strait to fucking hell. i would like to apolgize to all whom may get offended by reading this. If u have a problem with it, tough.Lifes a bitch and it dont get any better, who ever told u that it does is a fucking lier.
****havent u ever noticed, that nothing could ever be perfect. it could seem that way, but no. never perfect. Or it could be perfect on the outside but its like DAMN on the inside. its lik judging a book by its cover...u never kno0w what the fuuck to ecxpect.
im so pissed of right now. besides the fact that i got into a huge fight with everyone in my family, everythings going great. those mother f'ers dont understand me..or i dont understand them. its probably that, cuz im not good at understanding people, or atleast thats what i hear. it sux balls supposedly not understanding wat people are saying and then them talking down to you because down inside they dont even know what the fuck they are saying.
Yesterday was the Tas te of Chaos. That concert was awesome. I moshed so much. I even met Ian, the bassist from New Found Glory. I loved MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. I saw them perform of Jay Leno, but DAMN, its no where near the same. It was crazy. I met like 50 million new people.lol. Most of them know me as "The Guy Who Can Swallow His Tongue!" That was soo funny. The people I remember are Sam, Eddie, Suzy, her 13 year old friend and that Red Head Girl and her brother.lol.
I put on a fake tatoo today. it looks awesome, its of an eagle, but the dezign itself is outrageous. im pretty sure that in acouple of months im going to get it tattoed on my forearm, right where i have the fake one now.
i cant wait till friday. i turn 18, im so excited. im going on a cruise. its called sea escape. its a one day gambling and booze cruise. its going to be so much fun. i also get my car this week. it cant get any better than this, well it can but it wont, cuz that never happens.
david