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[daveysbeloved1]

too many reasons and not enough determination to follow through
dont know why
what is it that i'm trying to hide behind
fear
anger
sadness
i dont know
cover it all up so well
a pretty face
a smile
a laugh
make nice for the camera
dont know who i am anymore
what i want
what i need
unforseen
why is this so complicated
overwhelming
i'm so tired of being this person that everyone thinks i am
but can i really be someone else
someone different
someone real
and happy
and beautiful
loving
caring
maybe
maybe not
i remember happiness
now a dream, more than a memory
well
i cant exactly say that
i'm still happy from time to time
for an instant maybe
i dont know
sigh
i love only a few
and i believe my happiness and contentment rests on them
the ones who love me and care and who are there through it all
grateful
i guess thats what i am
simply
greatful
and lucky
to have what i do
done......