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really? no response to the most serious declaration i've made on here in.... several whiles....?
oh well. maybe no one was surprised.
remember when liza and i rocked out with arcade fire!?!? me neither. i did start crying when npr played a neighborhood clip the other day. also cried during extras, the tick, yacht rock, douglas adams bio, any superchunk song... the idea
i'll probably tear up while taking a dump tomorrow morning.
yet somehow today i walked by and hung out on the other side of the fence from wendy's grave with out a big reaction. then again i was distracted by the sign telling me i'd be fined 5000 dollars if i crawled under the fence to sit next to it like i've always done before. .........meant to bring that up with ash earlier but was too busy being happy to think of it.
seriously...there were nights i'm not sure i'd have made it through without trespassing in that place. aw fuck. that's a little dramatic. i'd have made it. ....but still...
also as i was walking away to deliver a letter to the neighbors about the wedding i thought - nice. having the wedding at my grandma's is the closest i could come to having wendy at the ceremony. and i thought i was all cute for thinking that. fuck. that's not very me...i mean it's a corpse...weird. seven years?
oh well. maybe no one was surprised.
remember when liza and i rocked out with arcade fire!?!? me neither. i did start crying when npr played a neighborhood clip the other day. also cried during extras, the tick, yacht rock, douglas adams bio, any superchunk song... the idea
i'll probably tear up while taking a dump tomorrow morning.
yet somehow today i walked by and hung out on the other side of the fence from wendy's grave with out a big reaction. then again i was distracted by the sign telling me i'd be fined 5000 dollars if i crawled under the fence to sit next to it like i've always done before. .........meant to bring that up with ash earlier but was too busy being happy to think of it.
seriously...there were nights i'm not sure i'd have made it through without trespassing in that place. aw fuck. that's a little dramatic. i'd have made it. ....but still...
also as i was walking away to deliver a letter to the neighbors about the wedding i thought - nice. having the wedding at my grandma's is the closest i could come to having wendy at the ceremony. and i thought i was all cute for thinking that. fuck. that's not very me...i mean it's a corpse...weird. seven years?