lalalalalalallalalala squirrels are such Q.T.s!!!!!!!1
well today was such a fascinating day! i went to school and i thought for awhile scottie wouldn't show his lovely face, but then i was MISTAKEN! HE SHOWED UP!!!! a little late in the day for anything we had planned, but after work we went to such a cute cafe and laughed forever! he is so much fun! and his ideas! REVOLUTIONARY!
then after that i went home and i fell into a spiral of guilt for all those little things that we just won't mention *teeheE* so i thought why not try to make a noose, at least i would have left this world on a happy day! IT WAS SO PRETTY OUT TODAY AND THE SQUIRRELS WERE EVERYWHERE! such happy squirrels. (on a side note, lena has come to terms with me wearing my squirrel tail around, i hope more people could be so accepting of our dying breed of furries...)
well when i made the noose i remembered some of the things i had learned in scouts, but then my memories blurred into those fantastic sleepovers and before i knew it i was standing in the window naked, shaking my wha-wha around in front of all those nice little boys playing on my neighbours lawn. it made me feel a little better, but i still swung the rope around the rafters on the stairs, put the noose around my neck, and humming a little tune, took the last step off the banister. i felt so free! but for some reason the rope unravelled and i fell down and only broke a toe. it's ok it doesn't hurt, that dumb nigger broke it the first time, and it doesn't feel much anymore. *sigh*
maybe this was god's way of telling me i have a reason to live, maybe it was my carelessness in tying the ropes, maybe it was a lesson for me telling me i shouldn't have diddled those sweet boys.
WHAT AM I SAYING!?!?!? i love boys.
then after that i went home and i fell into a spiral of guilt for all those little things that we just won't mention *teeheE* so i thought why not try to make a noose, at least i would have left this world on a happy day! IT WAS SO PRETTY OUT TODAY AND THE SQUIRRELS WERE EVERYWHERE! such happy squirrels. (on a side note, lena has come to terms with me wearing my squirrel tail around, i hope more people could be so accepting of our dying breed of furries...)
well when i made the noose i remembered some of the things i had learned in scouts, but then my memories blurred into those fantastic sleepovers and before i knew it i was standing in the window naked, shaking my wha-wha around in front of all those nice little boys playing on my neighbours lawn. it made me feel a little better, but i still swung the rope around the rafters on the stairs, put the noose around my neck, and humming a little tune, took the last step off the banister. i felt so free! but for some reason the rope unravelled and i fell down and only broke a toe. it's ok it doesn't hurt, that dumb nigger broke it the first time, and it doesn't feel much anymore. *sigh*
maybe this was god's way of telling me i have a reason to live, maybe it was my carelessness in tying the ropes, maybe it was a lesson for me telling me i shouldn't have diddled those sweet boys.
WHAT AM I SAYING!?!?!? i love boys.